Grassland of dream

Waiting for you to stay in November every time when you are tired, Zhanjiang is blowing the cool sea breeze as usual. I have met her for the nth time. She still carried that big backpack, but she could leave a feeling of empty and flat. The bright brown curly hair was distributed behind the thin shoulders, walking quietly in the noisy campus with a bicycle. Classmate, can you do me a favor? My car has lost its chain, but I can’t do it well. When she asked me for help, I was squatting to tie my often loose shoelace. Looking up, I suddenly saw a flower blooming instantly, with a vivid and lovely hairstyle and a light smile. There were always black pearls circling around in the dark black eyes. I couldn’t refuse that kind of gentleness, but after three days, I was given a dinner as a thank. After that, Jing began to enter my life slowly, occupying most of my notebook frequently. It is because of the serious imbalance between boys and girls in school. At that time, I thought that girls like Jing were still single. Therefore, I, a boy with extremely ordinary appearance, had the opportunity to get into the quiet life, and soon became her boyfriend. The time we spend together is as simple as common stock friends. We have dinner together and stroll around the campus and track and field again and again, half lying together on the football field which was never full of grass, counting the stars in the sky, then telling each other’s past, and reading the same book closely in the library together, I think love should be like this, unlike the vigorous in Korean TV series, but with the calmness and calmness that Chinese should have, which can give me a feeling of flowing water anyway. But for countless times when I was looking aside, I could see the silence of silence, which made my soul seem to be stripped away. I was anxious and inexplicably afraid in my heart, just like the elf who broke into the world, floating above the world, you will not be moved by anything. I told myself with the seventh feeling peculiar to boys that something was brewing and would happen without sleep. My dream is to drive my own sheep on the boundless grassland, wander in every corner of the grassland, and read everyone’s life in the grassland, jing said her dream to me calmly, and I followed the scene: there, I built a cabin for you, calling you to drive the sheep home at dusk every day, having a hot dinner around the table. Of course, there are also a group of our children who regard the grassland as a football field without boundaries. When they finish playing football happily every day, I found that, I didn’t say these words like pleasing me to the ground. At that moment, holding my hand quietly, I really hoped this was a fact, and it started from that moment. Sorry, in the distant grassland, my ideal and love have sprouted, but unfortunately, someone has been there waiting for me and him to wait for their growth. For you, I stretched out my hand to cover Jing’s mouth. I didn’t want to say such words from Jing’s mouth eventually. I would rather she told me through others. After knowing Jing, I learned that Jing still retained that incomplete love, and that prairie dream was born in that love. I never mentioned it. I thought those things would become the past. I thought that the distance of thousands of kilometers and the hot love could not reach the barrier of the glacier river, but they did it, after crossing those glaciers and rivers, they merged together. I quitted silently and returned to the world that belonged to me. Then at every moment of missing, I opened the dusty diary, in which there was only silence except me. The confusion of that period of time was just like the hazy drizzle in March. The memory gathered and scattered in every corner, but it could still arouse ripples constantly. In those days when someone accompanied me, in fact, my calm heart was not here. I could see that I didn’t want to expose it. Of course, I extremely liked that flower-like girl, but I couldn’t keep her. Jing, I don’t expect anything. I just hope you can regard my arms as your home when you are tired. Jing: the process and the ending both have the desolate Riverside where I feel greedy and hard to cross, but I find that the other shore is the other shore. Fortunately, I am just a large campus, is it fate to see the same boy countless times? Seeing that he wanted to stop talking every time, I decided to get to know him initiatively. It happened that the bicycle fell off the chain, and I saw him again, so just take him as free labor. He seemed a little surprised that I would stop him, but I didn’t care. After repairing the car, I left his phone number by the way, and three days later, I asked him out for a meal with the reason of thanks afterwards. Naturally, we got to know each other. Lin seemed to be a nice person. Although he looked just so-so, he had a good heart and was careful enough. My friend asked me to think about it, I said that I already had my own heart and could not tolerate the second person. We spent a lot of time together like good friends. Lin seemed to have a good impression on me, but I tried my best to maintain that layer of paper, and also hoped that he would not expose it. However, the expected thing still happened. Seeing his sincere confession, I couldn’t bear to refuse and acquiesced. Recently, I had a quarrel with Wei. I was very angry and a little impulsive to leave for such a big thing. Lin seemed to be aware of my absent-minded mind, but he never said that he was always good to me and did anything I didn’t want but had to do for me. At that moment, I have thought about giving up Wei and devoting myself to the love with Lin wholeheartedly. People are still greedy, always thinking about the pot in the bowl. While I was obsessed with Wei, I also maintained the distance between Lin and me. None of the three people had ever been happy in such a life. Wei finally decided to give up. Our dream of the beautiful grassland which had been for three years turned out to be just a dream. When we woke up, it should be shattered. I feel that everything in the world is unreal and will leave me someday. But Lin seemed to treat me better. He could see my unhappiness, he could understand my inner despair, and he also tried hard to rebuild my broken dream deep in my heart. He told me that he would build a cabin for me in the grassland, calling me to drive the sheep home at dusk every day, and eating hot dinner around the table. He also told me that a group of our children would regard the grassland as a football field without boundaries, playing football happily every day I think I choose to cheat is the most correct thing I do. I shouldn’t have such pure love. That kind of love filled me with guilt and revealed my business of stepping on two boats. Every time I thought of it, I felt a faint pain. I broke up with Lin with the lie that I chose to follow Wei to complete my dream of grassland. I wish that he could meet a better girl, at least with his single heart, I had both the process and the ending, but during this period, even I felt greedy. I struggled to cross the desolate Riverside, but found that the other shore was the other shore. Fortunately, I was just me, not related to anyone else. At that time, I am thought like this. Lin: go far away with a pure white dream and guard it for the whole life. I will wait for you not far away. When I know Jing lied to me, she has already carried the familiar backpack, she went straight to the grassland with her dream. I know that basically no one can change what she decides, and so can I. However, I can’t, nor can I let her bear the dream of grassland which once belonged to her, Wei and me alone. In love, all kinds of mistakes can be forgiven, while quiet dreams are missing my wooden house, the football team we formed together and the sheep we returned at dusk, but it is absolutely imperfect and unforgivable. Jing, believe me, not far away, I will call you at the intersection to drive the sheep back.

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