Middle-aged confusion

Time is moving slowly, moving so slowly that people can’t feel its movement. People’s age is just like this clock. Year after year, you can’t feel its speed. But one day, you will suddenly be surprised. Why don’t you feel that you are in middle age? Therefore, a kind of sadness, a sense of melancholy and a trace of loss came to my heart. In middle age, people have many physiological phenomena changing quietly: for example, their eyesight is getting weaker and weaker, their memory is much worse than before, their hair starts to become bald and white, and wrinkles on their faces are getting more and more, and deeper and deeper, the skin is loose, the eye bags come out, the crow’s feet are on the corner of the eye, and the functions of all aspects of the body are gradually declining. A kind of anxiety and anxiety that is hard to tell is quietly generated, and with the fat body, the loss of appetite, the confusion and loneliness in your heart always come to your mind. No matter how hard you try, you can’t recover this decline. I have heard a campus song named “I will grow old one day” before. The song says like this: I will grow old one day, which I can’t predict; If I come that day, don’t worry too much. Will you just shake your head? Think about whether you were ridiculous in the past. When your white hair covered your eyebrows, what was the smell in your heart. You should pay attention to what you should pay attention to, think about what you should think, forget what you should forget, and get what you should get. While you are not old now, you should create something; While you are young, try to find happiness. The songs are sung to those students who are in their vigorous years, and also encourage those young people who are wasting their time, not cherishing their time and not cherishing their lives. The songs are fresh and smooth, which is of great enlightenment and educational value, after listening, it is also thought-provoking. Now, when I am no longer young like many middle-aged people and carefully taste this song, I have a helpless mood, a sigh gushing into my heart, and a kind of youth no longer exists, people have come to middle age with emotion. Recalling the once brilliant youth, the lost years, and the remaining memories, and thinking of the passionate youth and infinite beautiful dreams sung in the song. Now I can only bury myself in the deepest part of my memory and no longer speak out. At the same time, the middle-aged time I longed for when I was young is not as gorgeous and splendid as my dream, but more confused. During the work break, every time I hear colleagues talking about how excellent and sensible their children are, they always take the first place in exams, either monitor or study committee member, and then look at their own children, being naughty, naughty and playful makes people hurt their brains and break their hearts. They will be called to school by teachers every three or five times to talk. Let’s take a look at each of my classmates and friends who have houses and cars, have successful careers and enrich their daily lives, while they worry about their unsatisfactory work, worry about their children’s study, and sigh secretly for the insipid life, some people sigh with emotion that middle age is the most difficult time for ordinary people. It is true to recall these words carefully, and it is true at all. Compared with others, money, honor, status and other things, I don’t have any of them, even my hobbies are less than others. However, there are many diseases such as high blood pressure, high blood sugar and gastropathy. What is left for yourself after working for decades? In addition to illness, helplessness, and loss. There are also dreams buried in my heart that cannot be realized, and career work brings me sadness. Till now, the shadow still covers me, sometimes as if the disease is aching faintly. At the same time, with the growth of age and the decline of physical strength, I feel that I am more and more unable to work. I always feel that there is a feeling of depending on others. I am ridiculed by young colleagues from time to time, and I also worry about mistakes in work, which makes the leaders dissatisfied. Nowadays, with the emphasis on youth and knowledge-based informatization, the middle-aged workers in the enterprise are becoming less and less advantageous, and their experience and work experience are left out like expired food, becoming less and less valuable. Facing the burning momentum, energy, energy and other aspects of young people, they knew that they couldn’t compare with them, but they still supported them with a swollen face. In order to retrieve the former advantages of some middle-aged people. However, no matter how hard they tried, they still couldn’t resist the young offensive, so they surrendered quickly and threw in defeat. A feeling of fearlessness and disobedience was revealed. There is a good saying: there are flowers in spring, moon in autumn, cool wind in summer and snow in the east. Yes, as long as we are people living in the real society, we can’t be free of troubles, let alone the ordinary middle-aged workers like us. There are parents in the upper class and children in the lower class. For life and family, even if there are troubles, you can only choose to endure them. But sometimes you feel uncomfortable and oppressed like a stone in your heart. Entering middle age, the most regretful thing is the decrease and estrangement of friends. The social contact is getting narrower and narrower, and I often regret that I didn’t make more friends when I was young. So now, except for the colleagues I met at work and the people I met for some reasons, the rest are all strangers, the comfort and warmth brought by having friends are getting less and less. Every time in leisure time, there is a sense of loss that has something to talk about, and loneliness welled up in my heart. When entering middle age, even if the working family is good enough, I will feel that life lacks color in my spare time. In addition, personal emotion has been replaced by family affection, and personal emotion has become less important. Maybe, when people reach middle age, emotion is the most helpless and boring period. In short, the once turbulent emotion has been buried in family and responsibility. Although the emotion is as plain as water, it still needs to be maintained diligently, because at this time, the responsibility is more than everything, not for yourself, but for the family, for the sake of the children not being hurt, you can only wronged yourself. When entering middle age, most of them are the same as me. Because the career has passed its peak period, the room for improvement is relatively small, and at the same time, they have to undertake the important task of foster father and son. Therefore, I often focus on the aspect of family life. I don’t have the past enthusiasm, enthusiasm or dedication to work, I often turn a blind eye to my work, and don’t want to make progress or make progress. I was surrounded by a large number of middle-aged people with a mentality of not seeking meritorious service but not seeking anything wrong. Of course, middle-aged people also have the characteristics of middle-aged people. For example, middle-aged people are not only mature, steady, restrained and indifferent, but also have certain social status, strong sense of responsibility, and also know how to be considerate and rich in inner feelings. In the face of disappointments, you can always face them calmly. You can also restrain yourself and adjust yourself. You can always find ways to relieve yourself. You can always manage your emotions, comfort your inner wounds and get out of the mire of troubles in time. All these factors are not possessed by young people and cannot be understood. Entering middle age is not nothing, nor is it what the above said. There are so many confusion and regrets. At the age, most middle-aged people have no more worries about getting married and starting a career, and their work is also in a semi-retired state. At this time, living oneself and exploring the value of life are the true meaning of life. Let the middle-aged people like me be less confused and more happy!

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