Do not owe

I always feel that I owe you. So no matter how indifferent you are, I will tell myself: I am come to pay the debt, and I will leave after paying it. You said in your diary: love is eternal. Never walked out of each other’s world. Thank you and. I think these are only due to your gratitude to your friends, without any implication related to me. Really no. But I know you are happy yesterday. May be the first person to give you birthday wishes, you have a surprise. Yesterday morning, I saw obvious signs of happiness on your face when you entered the classroom. I think if only an ordinary friend remembered your birthday in time and sent blessings, you would be happy too. That’ll be enough. I carefully prepared the gift sent by long distance for you, and I don’t know if it will bring you a surprise. Will. Look at the diary you wrote. However, what you wrote is to thank your friends who care about you. It seems to have nothing to do with me. Because you once told me that I was trying to be good friends again, but I knew it was difficult. This means that I am nothing. I am not even your ordinary friend. And I don’t need how you treat me. Gradually, these seem to be unimportant. Perhaps it is because I have already clearly seen everything, and I don’t care about it or expect it. I want to treat you well just because I want to treat you well. I want you to continue to be positive, optimistic and happy. This makes me look great. F said that you are just an ordinary person. You don’t have to be so noble. I love you. Hehe, in fact, I also feel that I am great when doing this. I really can’t imagine that I can be so great. First of all, although there is nothing wrong with loving or not, for a person who loves you, it is a kind of hurt that you don’t love her. Thirdly, you do have shortcomings in dealing with our relationship. And I really don’t blame you, just want to look at you. I even hope that you can find a rich girl, so that your future life will not be so tired and hard. Although I am always afraid that one day you will fall in love, and then falling in love with that girl will bring me loneliness. And cruel harm. I prefer to look after you. But at that time, I hoped that we would not appear in each other’s world again. If we didn’t know, maybe we wouldn’t be too sad. Considering your boys’ natural possessiveness. I think even if you don’t trust me any more, you still don’t want to see me as good as other boys. Then, I will no longer fall in love in your vision. Because there is really no one to fall in love. And I will try my best to avoid letting you see me with other boys. Xiao Er said that I am a good woman. Oh. In this way, I am really a good moldy woman. Happiness is always so far away. Do you think God is fair? You once said you were God. Wrong. You are just my god. To a large extent, you dominate my happiness. Of course, it is only temporary. I never believe that one person can control another’s life. Besides, you have nothing to do with me. You are just a small part of my past. And I, from the beginning to now, can’t be anything in your eyes. I am always so clear about these. But I need a process to buffer. In the past, I always pushed myself very tightly, giving myself a deadline, forcing myself to figure out something at a certain time, and then completely put down and leave. As a result, the waving flags and shouting again and again not only can’t let me go away, but also let you live deeper in your heart. Oh. Those behaviors are ridiculously retarded. But this is what you must experience when you grow up. How can you reach the sky one step at a time? Later, I found that there were some things that you didn’t need to think about deliberately. Just at a moment, you suddenly understand everything. That’s epiphany. This kind of epiphany is a process of internalization, which will not be wavering or contradictory. It just suddenly rushed into your head and heart. You saw everything through at that moment, and there was no chance to restore everything. Therefore, don’t be deliberate, just let nature take its course. I think I still owe you in my previous life. We met just to give me a chance to pay my debts. We won’t have any intersection after the debt is repaid. Only occasionally, I still feel that I have played such a disgusting tragic role. Do you know how much I hated this kind of role that made love mean? But now we are already following this path. As S said, we are doing things beyond the scope of our own value. This is the helplessness of life. There are too many helplessness in life. I believe this is just the preliminary. Different stages have different helplessness. Love may be the helplessness dominated by me in this period. I have done everything I should do. F said I have done enough. In the past, I was really afraid of being hurt, so I dared not to give. Then there was a period of time when I regarded injury as growth profitably, and I was no longer too afraid. But now, there is even no such utilitarian growth psychology. At this time, I think I have grown up too much. Oh. It is still your contribution. I said goodbye to leaving many times, but later I found it useless. I think I should face you with a smile, be bold and calm, and pretend like there is no story between us at the beginning. But this time is no longer a disguise, but a real breeze. Virgo people will give without reservation when falling into love. I used to feel incredible when I saw this constellation, because I was so afraid of giving in love, and I was afraid that it was hard to get water. Later believe in something. Because I seem to have done so. You won’t know that I spent almost the whole college time in this relationship, and you won’t know what kind of bitterness behind the natural and unrestrained departure is, you won’t know that there is a woman who misses you no matter facing the sunrise or the sunset, and then bless you silently. I think I have really paid off the debt. In this way, we can not owe each other. You can calmly persuade yourself to leave. Don’t owe you any more, just say goodbye.

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