Enjoy loneliness (piano stage art)

It is not because of fidgety, but because I feel empty in my heart. The night was very quiet, which made people panic. One turned over, facing the window. The curtain was not closed, and the Moonlight splashed on the floor through the window, but it was restricted by the window edge, one square by one. Barefoot, following the footprints of moonlight, I walked to the front of the window. I shivered because of the cold weather in autumn and night. No wonder the old said that the frost was heavy in autumn. I began to look at this quiet autumn night carefully. The Moonlight is like the white of bovine colostrum, sprinkling on the Earth to my heart’s content, which makes everything appear in front of my eyes in a clear posture. The plane tree on the roadside is trying to hoard its energy. A stray cat is leaning against the root of the tree, dreaming of going home. My eyes drifted far away. A small house nearby showed soft light, quiet and warm. It suddenly occurred to me that when I was a child, I learned “Wanderer’s singing”. My loving mother was in the middle of the line and wearing clothes on the wanderer. I didn’t know whether the most warm picture in the world was playing in that small house. The bell rang in. I counted silently in my heart: one, two, three, four suddenly surprised, it’s 12 o’clock, it’s time to sleep! When I turned around, I accidentally saw a book lying beside the windowsill. I picked it up and found that it was Ji Xianlin’s “Bed of illness”. In my impression, he is simple and amiable, with a white cat accompanying him. As a master, because of loneliness, he is focused; Because of concentration, he is profound. Putting down the book, I walked to the bed and picked up the Walkman, which was just the song of Pu Shu. In such a material lofty Society, Pu Shu’s songs are far away from the noise of material desires, leaving only peace. The wind keeps on, the green trees are shaded, the sunshine is dazzling, the innocent and blue listen to the songs of Pu Shu, and enjoy my loneliness. Like (prose editor: yuiran) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Trouble

Lying alone in the bed, my mind flew in my mind, and the outside was dark. Good cold cold. People are lonely at night, and it is hard to avoid thinking when they are alone. Think about something happy or unhappy. I like to express myself in words and write down some things that are not very happy one by one. But I haven’t written for a long time. It’s not because I don’t have time, but because I am too lazy to write. Maybe I’m too tired recently, and I don’t want to disturb others. I ‘d better stand it alone. It may feel better to write it down! End of the year approaching! I grew up one year later. I really don’t want to grow up. I feel that time flies too fast! It can’t be grasped like a falling arrow. Looking back on the heavy events that happened this year, I felt it was too bad, not just ordinary. It is really unlucky. I didn’t even earn a penny in this year, and there were so many annoying things happening in my family. I was almost depressed to death. This year has never been so difficult as this year. Fortunately, all this has finally passed. I hope next year will be a good luck year. Bring yourself luck! Twenty-one years have come so muddy and heavy. Everything is so silent. I am not ready yet, and I will soon be an adult of twenty-two! Everything seems like a dream. I think I was a good student carrying a schoolbag not long ago. Children who only know how crazy they are all day long didn’t expect to grow up at once. They really miss the carefree life when they were young! Everything came too fast, too sudden. Thinking of everything in the past, I was absent-minded yesterday. I know I can never go back to the past, I really miss it, I really feel helpless! Time flies and time flies. Students who want to study together yesterday have gone their own ways Today. They are married, parents, and busy with their careers! There is little contact with each other. Maybe I happened to meet him on the road, but I can’t recognize who is who! Everything is so realistic, everything is so cruel. I thought I had become the parent of my child when I was a child yesterday. The change is really too fast. Apart from a sigh of emotion, what else can you do? Who cares about whom? Who pays for whom? Who takes who seriously? Who cherishes who! After stepping on the train of youth, we are the most concerned people in this period, the most mainstream people in the society. Not in Love! We are very annoyed, and no one loves us. In love! We are also annoyed that we have no energy to maintain this relationship. If we lose love, we will be more annoyed, bothering ourselves to lose the one we love most. In fact, don’t go too far into the corner. Calm down, think about it and find out the reason. If you really can’t figure it out, just shout a few times, or go outside to relax. In fact, sometimes it is not your fault. In fact, you are right at all. That is life, that is life. You have to learn to endure living in this world. Only after experiencing can we become mature and have a memory. Take it as a good fortune and collect it well! It will benefit you without any harm! I miss someone so quietly. Why do you miss her so much! God knows! I just worried about her in my heart! For the first time, I felt the feeling of missing someone. I felt tired and upset, worried about her, turned to the opposite side, couldn’t sleep at night, didn’t think about tea and dinner, and had no choice but to see her. Really good annoyance. Simply stop thinking about it. All free! Meeting is a kind of fate. I cherish it and work hard. If the fate is over and I want to break up, I will not persuade to stay late at night, and people will be quiet! However, it is still hard for me to fall asleep. Is it the loneliness of the silent night or the silence of the lonely night. I feel that I am too sentimental! Let’s play Lin Daiyu! Ha ha, but we are men, afraid that the director will not. What should I do in the future? I am at a loss! No matter how dark it is, it is always not a solution! It is time for such a large number of people to work hard. Now is the peak period of their hard work. I don’t want to be a verifier who is young but not hard-working, and the eldest is sad. A person without ideal is just like a walking corpse, who is understanding and lazy to work hard, and even more like a cicada pupa body. People can’t live in vain. They have to contribute to others and realize their own life value. Life is actually very short. Maybe they will silence in a blink of an eye, if you don’t want to walk quietly, then struggle hard and create your own glorious chapter! I was very happy when I was young. A piece of soil, a piece of paper, a small brick and a small wooden stick were all objects for myself to play with. These simple things could not be simpler, it can bring you endless happiness. After growing up, those happiness were gradually encroached by troubles. Why were you so annoyed when you grew up? A kind of invisible pressure made you unable to breathe, so tired and tired! Happiness is very simple. It depends on how you treat it. Don’t take everything seriously. Push yourself into a dead corner. You have to give up something that should be abandoned. You will get a lot of happiness if you give up those things! Only gain can be lost, and only gain can be lost. People should learn how to adapt, and this is life! We should cultivate a kind of open-minded feeling that we don’t like things or ourselves! You have to endure it, because you have grown up! It was already late at night to write down these scattered words, and I felt much better. I wrote down the unhappiness in my heart quietly and tasted it carefully! I just feel that the original trouble has been dumped! No wonder there have been so many literati and poets from ancient times till now. It turns out that they also have troubles and when they are not depressed. They can’t find someone who can listen to themselves when they are unhappy, just use this little words to express your inner feelings! Therefore, there are **poems and masterpieces handed down from time to time. That’s why the great poets like Li Bai, Bai Juyi and Du Fu appeared, and the great literary giants like Lu Xun, Guo Moruo and Zhang Ailing appeared! Countless at all times and in all countries. It turns out that annoyance is not a very bad thing. It depends on how you treat it and control it! Late at night, sleepiness hit me, and I felt a little sleepy. May your dear friends and yourself enjoy good luck forever! A day is better than a day! Like (prose editor: prose online) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Birthday, I said…..

In my parents’ hometown, my 20th birthday is also a big birthday. Maybe it was because of my interest. My father turned out the diary two or ten years ago, and didn’t find it until then, it turned out that my date of birth recorded in his diary was two months different from the date of birth in my mother’s memory. Since I was born at the end of the year, the time difference of two months is enough for the new year. Father said: white paper and black words, indeed chisel. My mother said: that day was the day when my belly was hollowed out and the date was embedded in. There could be no mistake. I said wisely: is it the difference between the lunar calendar and the solar calendar? Impossible! I never remember the lunar calendar! This is the only consensus of parents. I was born in a small village in the countryside. What welcomed me to this world was the midwife with rural characteristics at that time. Later, I always asked her to deliver the mother-in-law. That night, it was snowing heavily, and my mother-in-law came to my house hurriedly. After my mother’s cramps and the pain like a wrong bone, she took me away from my mother’s body easily. Because it was too cold and it was night again, my mother-in-law wiped me hastily, then put me into my mother’s bed and went home to warm the bed. After I stripped off my mother’s body, I howled a few times unaccustomed, and then turned my hands again. Then I tilted my mouth and asked my parents for food, my parents, who were new parents, could not explain my body language at all. The only thing they understood was that everything was normal for their daughter, which relieved them. However, because I couldn’t get the food I needed, I no longer insisted and fell asleep. My poor parents were very unaccustomed to my existence in this silent night. They opened their eyes wide and stared at their daughter in panic, just like staring at an animal, An animal they have never seen before, their daughter is too ugly, with several deep wrinkles on her forehead, and her frozen purple skin is as thin as cicada feather, and still crumpled….. In this state of disappointment and fear, it is understandable if there is any clerical error in my father’s diary that day. I just came to this world casually and easily. I didn’t need a hospital, a doctor, or a birth certificate. I grew up healthily. My father didn’t register for me until I ran all over the floor. When I was about to go to school, my father, who was born in a scholarly disciple, was eager to let my daughter Cheng Feng go to school early. Under the circumstance that household registration management was not strict enough at that time, go to the brigade department and change the date of birth for me. This date has been used till now, and it is also the date of birth on my ID card. At the age of twenty, I happily had three birthdays. My childhood birthday was a bowl of noodles and two eggs. At that time, it was not a luxury, but it was also called a good meal. However, I don’t like eating noodles very much. What I favor is the two eggs lying under the noodles. But I was never in a hurry to finish the noodles. Instead, I picked up one gently and sucked it slowly. The noodles slipped into my mouth, and when it came to the breakpoint, it would burst, throw it into your mouth as quickly as possible, and splash the noodle soup on your face at the same time….. Therefore, I raised my face, held two dimples, giggled for a long time, and then made the same mistake again….. Now I think about it, what I admire most is my mother’s ability to fry eggs. At that time, when there was little oil and salt, she could always fry eggs in the inside, tender and crisp. Golden eggs have infinite attraction to me. I pecked along the edge of the eggs with my thin teeth, and finally left round egg yolk. Then I gently bit an incision, the unsolidified egg yolk slowly passes through the tip of the tongue, flows into the esophagus, and directly enters the stomach….. When I can eat two bowls of noodles, I can continue the joy of childhood for a lifetime….. After 20 years old, I seldom eat noodles made by my mother, because I was not at home most of the time. I can no longer remember my birthday. In the past two years, birthday, this special day, has come back. Today’s birthday is a kind of concern for friends, a set of underwear, a memory of an album, a pendant romance, and a deep feeling in the heart…… Like (prose editor: yuiran) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Memory is just memory, the past is just the past

When his voice was close to him, she was on the other side, through the long line, the distance seemed to be short but far.; That afternoon, the figure outside the window gradually moved away, turning around, he could not see his face, a back figure, a long distance. With the burning smoke body, it rose and dissipated, just like the intersection of her Hasty Heart and missing. Text: The fence is sparse; The loneliness hidden behind the noise, a faint shadow, a person hiding in the shadow sighed. A large white rose was open in the second place, and the tightly clustered petals were like the color of Crystal. In the rain, they were so soft and water-like, so cold, looking from afar, there is a tremor, a pity. Who can understand your language when you are swaying in the wind and rain. Tears are flowing in the sky of this city, for the dry land. It has been raining continuously for several days, and the wet weather is associated with the wet mood. The dream of last night was in the patter of heavy rain with strange and clear photocopies in my mind. I woke up in a trance, and those who could hardly remember their faces met in my dream. Yes, I only meet in my dream, I just want to meet in my dream. Time is continuing, just like the past, walking with delicate steps, fast or slow, with reserved and elegant steps, as if touching the unreal and trance light and shadow, where is the time at the fingertips broken? Following behind it, I don’t know whether the calm heart is still there. Spring is really an annoying season. The break of rain spread out between the light touching the earth. These rain, dust and people in the rain walked hurriedly with silent expressions.; When did I get used to it, when did I forget it, and when did I forget the graceful images? However, I just want to watch the interpretation without saying anything and put the moving into my heart, ignore the sad. Sometimes I think that meeting each other at a certain time is like dancing a lonely or gorgeous dance with each other in an earthly ball. Then, they may end up with each other, leaving each other or moving forward and backward hand in hand. And those departing, like casual encounter, missed again, and then, occasionally thought of, will suddenly forget. The rain keeps falling, and every drop of rain seems to be like a sentence. I don’t know whether the person I met is greeting. I have said that there will be an ending after turning around like this. It wakes up with the speed of hibernating in the ending. Like (prose editor: prose online) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Autumn whisper

After all, the temperature could not resist the pace of the season. After several struggles, it failed. It seemed that the autumn wind occupied every corner of the world, yesterday, people with single shirts and short skirts changed their autumn clothes one after another. Looking through the calendar, I found that the autumn equinox had passed and the Cold Dew was approaching. I was sure that the heat would come back again without confidence. I rummaged through the boxes again and put the clothes in summer on the shelf instead of the items in autumn and winter. My husband said with a little teasing tone: Don’t worry, it’s not cold, things have been changed; It’s not hot, and the clothes are all put away. I don’t like to hear this at this time. Isn’t it the right time? Because of the capricious climate, this is the second time I have done the same thing, isn’t it my abnormality? Heart a little angrily. Yes, I am definitely walking step by step with the impression of the season. Although I can’t wait, I will always have unpredictable temptation in the future. Even if it is the winter I dislike most, I am looking forward to it, looking forward to it, just like looking forward to growing up in childhood. If you come here in the autumn wind, you will naturally give a little autumn rain. The rain was just right. Without Xia Li’s wanton and fierce behavior, she looked like a big girl who was going to leave the cabinet. She was dignified and implicit, and expressed her feelings in her heart without any hurry. I am didn’t feel the desolation of the rain hitting the plantain. On the contrary, both body and mind were washed pure and transparent. My friend said: scenery comes from your heart, and there is no Autumn in your heart. What is autumn? I can’t help but heckled. Since ancient times, amorous love has hurt parting, which is more worthy of the cold Qing autumn festival. Wordless alone on West Building, month hook, lonely Indus Shen yuan lock clear autumn. Sitting and sleeping, the autumn is over and over, and seeing the dawn of the day. The ancient poems, the endless sadness and loneliness, and the endless parting and sorrow are all related to the bleak autumn. However, looking around the world, what stirred my heart was Mao Zedong’s independent cold autumn. Xiangjiang went north and Orange Island. See million Eagles, cenglinjinran; Flood river Bitou, vying. Eagles cleaved, shallow bottom, Million class cream tian jing freedom. Isn’t this autumn? I once heard a poem: spring is not autumn, why worry about age? As long as you bear your fruit in the autumn frost, why be shy in front of spring flowers and be moved by that heroic feeling. Life is like four seasons, spring and autumn, which one can you say is more beautiful? I am prefer autumn, without the charm of spring, the heat of summer and the coldness of winter, autumn is gentle, even if the autumn wind and rain which have been hated by poets for thousands of years blow on me, I feel refreshed. Nature is filled with intoxicating mature atmosphere. Cotton, white rice and gold, chrysanthemum and yellow Maple pill, which season are the rich and colorful colors inferior? What is rare is such a thick and colorful rendering, which still keeps a piece of blue and Distant Sky to make tired people feel comfortable and reverie, and a vast expanse of deep and clear Autumn Water to recall and cherish the affectionate you and me. I don’t like the unchangeable life, and I often marvel at the fact that the laws of nature follow the desire of life magically. When the cold comes and the summer goes, the spring goes and the autumn comes, when we are in a wane mood, nature presents us a brand new world with tacit understanding. When you chew the sweetness, do you also want to taste the bitter taste? I sat in the classroom and looked forward to today’s glory, but today I miss the frivolous youth. Life is always like this, why do we still sigh? A complete life is destined to taste all the ups and downs, going through gathering, separation, birth, aging, illness and death. After all, those who should come will come, just like this autumn, just like your one-year-old birthday. What do you like and worry about? Facing and accepting frankly is a process of tasting and enjoying life. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Shaving the think

I occasionally looked in the mirror at home last night, and suddenly found that I was so old in the mirror, and the wrinkles left on my face by years were getting deeper and deeper, the beard turned gray like being beaten by frost. Especially after staying up late, the beard grows crazily. So I picked up the first-hand razor and scraped it gently after applying shaving cream. The sharp blade swam around my face, feeling itchy and comfortable. I am a very lazy person, he would not shave until his beard was full and his beard was broken, but I was also a person who liked shaving, every time after shaving his beard and touching his shiny chin, he looked in the mirror and looked at his face, which had experienced many vicissitudes and wrinkles, with cyan appearing in the smoothness and a little youthful luster, there will be a surprise in my heart. This is me? It seems that it is not me! It seems that I have found a little time in the past, the elegant demeanour of the past and the confidence of being a man. People should be sent to their parents. Beard is the physiological characteristic of men, and it is also the symbol of men. Since puberty, men begin to grow beard slowly because of the effect of hormones. Later, Beard will grow around the mouth, the lower part of the face, the jaw, the lower jaw and the upper end of the throat. Shaving has become a thing that men need to do in their daily life. Whether shaving or shaving, it can make men glow and be very natural and unrestrained. If a boy grows up to 18 years old and there is no need for his lips, he will not only be nervous, but also his family members will worry about whether there is something wrong with his physical development. I once remembered that when I was boarding in Chunhui Middle School, there were some boys who were older and developed earlier. Every time they got up early in the morning to shave their beard, they would show their pride. However, those of us who haven’t grown beard always envy them in our hearts, and also hope that we can grow beard quickly to become men as soon as possible. Now I recall the youth mentality of those years, it’s very funny! I still remember when I walked out of the school threshold and muddled in the society, I was only 17 years old and still childish. In order to make myself look mature, I often didn’t shave, but it was useless, the beard seemed to be against himself on purpose. The more he wanted it to grow faster, the less it would grow. Even if he didn’t shave for three or five days, he wouldn’t grow much. And the elders who were close to me always liked to teach me a lesson with an old saying of a hundred officials: They had no hair on their lips and couldn’t handle affairs firmly. The beard of a man has become a symbol. Whether it is reliable or not has a direct relationship with the beard. Therefore, many young and mature people have reserved their beard to show their maturity, thus gaining others’ recognition of their social experience and working ability. I found in literary works and films that many people in ancient times were bearded. In ancient times, men didn’t have much means to show the masculinity of men. What could they rely on to attract the attention of women? I’m afraid there is only beard! Therefore, from the Emperor to the common people, all of them took Xu Xu as their beauty, which became a fashion. Chuang Tzu regarded the beautiful beard as a symbol of the best man, and Guan Yunchang, who passed the five passes and cut six generals in Romance of the Three Kingdoms, was a real beautiful beard man. There are also ancient men with beard, which is also an image showing men’s wisdom. Confucius, the Confucian sage I know, Zhuge Kongming who is well-prepared, Li Bai, a generation of poet immortal and Du Fu, the poet saint, all have long beard fluttering. Have you noticed that when the ancient men were thinking about problems in the TV series, a very classic action in the camera was to gently stroke the long beard on the chest, then I found the ancient man’s beard was quite exquisite, and I could see some of his family affairs from the beard. The man who left a word Hu means that he has got married; The man who left a word Hu means that he has entered the Society or has children; The man who left a descendant Hu, it means that his children have been married and there are also grandchildren. Modern society shows more open and tolerant personality, and some fashionable men trim their beard beautifully to show their demeanour and show themselves. For a man who is keen on grooming his beard, as long as the beard grows smelly, there is no need for a reason to grow beard. The beauty of a man’s beard varies from person to person, and different beard has different beauty, which should be examined by the Mirror. Generally speaking, a round face can leave some beard with relatively tough outline and direct lines, such as upper lip beard or goat beard, which can lengthen the face shape; A triangular face is a person with narrow forehead and wide lower jaw, it is suitable for burying beard to cover the lower jaw to make the face harmonious; Rhombus face can leave beard at the chin, which can make the sharp chin unobvious; While for people with Chinese-shaped face, keeping the beard can better reflect its masculinity, and you can choose to keep the upper lip and beard together. Today’s beauty and makeup artists can completely make men handsome, and they don’t have to bother too much to study. However, many women don’t like men’s beard very much. Your beard is so pricked! This is a word that we often hear from women around us, let alone long beard. After shaving for so many years, my face has changed from full of luster to rough and dim, from smooth and clean to loose and wrinkled, from black stubble to white beard, which makes me feel that I have experienced many vicissitudes, getting older and older, I really feel the long life and the rush of time Like (prose editor: Shu Kuang) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

阳光的故事

我的足迹只局限在长江下游,没有什么奇特值得在人前说上三天三夜的故事。我渴望能够这样,就象从混混噩噩梦的黑影里钻出来,干燥滚烫的嘴唇急想沾上牛奶的芬芳。但我每次都是失望。这不能怪我,任何人都没有理由没有权力责备。还有你们看到的,站在大家面前,我身体颤抖,神情紧张,耳根泛红,怯濡的眼睛泄露了秘密 它畏畏缩缩,飘忽莫定 我还很年青,年青得没有学会游刃有余控制好自己的情绪。当然,这你们已经知道。 我的故乡躲在皖南层层密密山林一个半山腰上。我不明白祖先为何要把家园安置于此,交通不便,信息闭塞,有许多人忙忙碌碌生活一辈子也没见过柏油马路长的啥模样。那条距村庄三十多里地的柏油马路上天天有三轮、四轮、六轮的车辆象甲壳虫 轰轰隆隆 爬行。瞑目之前能够看上它一眼见回 世面 ,也就是他们辛劳一生最大的想望了吧?我的这种推测并非源自无端,我说出这样一个事实也不希求你们马上相信,相信了也不要发什么感慨。我不求你们,只要保持沉默知道这个世界还有这么回事就行。芸芸众生灿若星辰,都在各自的轨道上放光运行,谁要要求对方做什么,谁就成了万尊之尊的上帝。但是,自从尼采临世以后,你们分享了他振聋发聩惊世骇俗的伟大发现。上帝死了。我们生存的这个宇宙不再设有他的席位。如今,连他的骨灰也被风吹散了,散得无影无踪,谁也不会讲他无所不在 而这,早是一个不争的事实。 我在第一篇小说中给祖先把家园安置在皖南山林寻找到一种可能。我说是世家大族为躲避兵匪之祸、血光之灾,逃难至此。那个时候天下大乱烽烟遍燃,正是出英雄的好时代。流亡奔难四处漂泊似乎也不失为一种壮举。尊卑富贫的巨大变迁,生死喜忧的戏剧递嬗,使祖先的生命体验丰富了,人格世界升华了。这真是可值得羡慕的事情:不仅见识过大世面,而且学会了一种恬然淡然的超脱。问世间碌碌凡俗几人能够?当然,这是我给自己的疑惑设计的一个比较满意的答案。为此我感到喜悦。我的祖先具有了历史厚度,我的不知是啥长相的祖先也满身焕发出传奇的色彩。但是,现在从贫困记忆中拿出的这个事实我很不舒服,感觉差劲透了。这并非源自事实本身,而是觉得后人与祖先的精神相距太远,简直就是两个极端。我不鄙薄后人,绝无此意。 博尔赫斯是本世纪南美洲最优秀的诗人之一。他在《循环的夜》中写下这样的诗句 我不知道我们会不会在第二个循环中回来, 就象循环小数那样重新反复; 可我知道一个毕达哥拉斯的黑夜轮回, 一夜一夜地把我停留在世界的一个什么地方。 若果历史真存在这种 循环 与 轮回 ,历史就在这种 循环 与 轮回 中向前演进,那么,我反倒无话可说了。我又一次为自己感到悲哀。我的悲哀是我在借助博尔赫斯的诗句,发现这个秘密之后。 这个秘密就是:我的祖先是循环的始点,后人处在循环的中央,我,则四顾茫茫然站立在循环的终点。终点,不正是下一循环的起点吗?闹钟的时针指在午夜,昨天的24点就是今天的0点。但是,我却无法拥有祖先那么多传奇的故事,我的生命体验很浅薄,象一大片尚未开垦的处女地,芳草萋萋鹦鹉洲。我不知该如何去拓垦。我的足迹只局限在长江下游,没有什么奇特值得在人前炫耀三天三夜的经历。我又过早地知道了超脱,学会了用文字来编织自缚的罗网。同时,我发现自己变得越来越畏怯,时时刻刻象一只将要被人赶上架的鸭子。 现在,我停留在世界的什么地方呢? 1973年2月27日清晨。这个时间在地球上50亿男男女女看来,没有几人会认为它有什么巨大而深远的意义。更何况,有意义的时间现在太多,多得象走马灯让人目不暇接眼花缭乱。谁记得那么清楚?24年前的某一天,还是清晨。你饶了我吧!我已经听到有人在大声抱怨了。没关系。我只是说说这个时间而已,并没有强求你们花费脑力记住它,更没有对你们的记不住它而有所微词。我对大家并不苛求什么,甚至一想到我对你们会有所苛求,我就深觉这是在犯罪。放心吧,我的性子很平和。我说出这个时间仅仅是它对我有意义,有异乎寻常的意义。你们眼睛非常明亮,一定看出来了,我这么叙述时语句有点罗里巴索。但是请你们原谅。因为,这个时间一旦在我平静的脑海里象白色的小岛浮起,我就心跳加快热血沸腾激动不已。 我一直认为,那天天气晴朗阳光很感染人地微笑,笑得让人心里甜滋滋的象在谈一场热火朝天灿烂辉煌的恋爱。这个美好的念头在我的记忆中象羽翼轻盈的白鸟盘旋了22年,一听到它怡悦耳目的啾啾声我就兴奋。我那傻乎乎的模样你们见了准会觉得好笑。其实,激动兴奋过后,心绪平静下来,我也觉得自己可笑。至于吗?何必呢?傻冒。可是,轻轻骂过自己之后,这种毛病还是常犯,成了改不了的积习。 我欺骗了自己22年!也许这不能算是欺骗,因为这个日子的具象我从来就没有亲眼目睹过。那个时候父亲在县人民医院妇产科的大门口来回焦躁地走动,眉宇紧紧拧成一条小川。母亲则躺在产床上咬紧牙关拼尽心力忍受着巨大的痛苦为我的诞生做着一次又一次不懈的努力。我出生的过程自己浑然无觉,我的伟大的父母却历经了巨大的灾难。而当伟大的父母松了口气脸露彼此关切的微笑时,躺在母亲怀中的我则爆响了一大串惊天动地经久不息的 哇哇 声。我哭什么呢?是受了委屈还是身上寒冷?2月27日的皖南还躺在冬天的怀抱中,山头积雪没化,从雪峰间流泻下来的寒风侵得人骨髓生疼。母亲的胸膛是温软的,象懒洋洋冬日的阳光抚在身上。我的啼哭声象涨潮似的一浪高过一浪。真不明白小小的心灵深处哪来的这么多苦难。留恋那片混沌与冥冥吗?为自己即将进入的这个世界感到恐惧吗?大家笑得越开心越满足我哭喊得越欢腾。我意识到我从暖暖的安全的家里滑落了下来,但我象个盲人我什么也看不见。外面也是暖暖的,但跟家里不一样。 眼前骤然一亮身上暖暖的我以为那天天气晴朗阳光在微笑着吻我。我嗅到了蜂蜜的气息还有浓郁的花香,就象1997年2月15日阳光明媚的午后。这个时候我在伏案写着一篇不知该称它为什么的文字。我身穿武警橄榄绿。我所在的部队驻扎在吴淞口长江边。一个半世纪前一位叫陈化成的清朝将领在此抗击英军海上入侵,浴血疆场饮弹身亡。炮舰硝烟如今荡然无存,阳光底下英雄的土地一片和平安宁。 父亲给我取了一个光明的名字。尼采曾自诩他是 太阳 ,鲁迅对他没抱什么好感,甚至对他最后的发疯觉得快意。我无须自诩。因为我名字就含 太阳 之意。《新华字典》对 旸 字是这么解释的。 1、晴天。2、太阳出来。 晴空万里一碧如洗,如此光辉充满希望的名字也许是父母对我一生的殷深祝福吧,祝福我成为命运的宠儿,愿成功象受磁石吸引的铁片纷纷向我飞来。我深深感谢我的父母。尽管现在,我不在两老身边,因为工作的缘故连春节也没有回皖南山区的家。我非常非常地想念他们。 正是那温煦舒爽的感觉以及《新华字典》关于 旸 的解释,22年来,我一直没有怀疑过。我坚执地相信并把它营造得非常美丽。1973年2月27日。一个冬天里阳光灿烂的日子。无须再去浪费宝贵的文字了,仅这 阳光灿烂 ,就足以让我产生无穷无尽光彩夺目的联想。 光以30万公里/秒的速度运行。中学物理课本里铅字这么印着。戴黑框眼镜的中年女教师在黑板上用白色粉笔这么写着,并且用红粉笔在 30万公里/秒 的下面划上一横。果然,期末考的试卷上就出现了这道填充题。 光的运行速度是/秒 。带着微微的兴奋和喜悦我在横线上面写下 30万公里 。 当然,阳光也是以每秒30万公里的高速度运行。只有在没有阻拦的高速运行中它才觉得自由、舒畅。运动,奔驰,没有牵绊没有阻碍,多么刺激多么快意!整个世界人的心灵都在阳光的奔跑中亮堂起来,欢呼起来。黑暗消散了,寒冷退缩了。一心一意往前跑哇!在恣肆的奔跑中展现你的活力,活出你的性格 但是,这是孤岛似的皖南山区。东西南北平原缓缓伸延,向遥远的天际铺漫开去。唯独在这平原之海的中央,一座接一座的山脉巍然高耸,以站立者的姿态,擎住苍天;以绵亘的山势,雄关险隘围护家园。施耐庵着的《水浒传》中接受朝廷招安后的梁山英雄为攻打方腊过,在这一带山林丢下十几位好汉的尸体。当年日寇大肆侵华,见了这里山势险恶地形复杂,也不免心生恐惧。思量再三,还是绕了过去,只用飞机在空中投下几枚炸弹。阳光是在山里诞生的,阳光想到山外去。于是,这山,重重叠叠的山脉就成了他活动的障碍,也铸成了他性格当中坚毅与忧伤的内核。他的所有诗兴由此而生。天山交接处有一扇神秘的门,打开那扇门,阳光就象长了翅膀,鸟一样向门外飞去。门外据说很精彩很无奈,但终究是别人说的,没有亲身去经历,怎知它是真还是假。 很小的时候阳光做过两件事。这两件事直到1997年的现在,阳光回想起来心中仍象有石头坠着,沉甸甸地呼吸不顺。他觉得自己这么多年来心情一直沉重没有体验过小说里描写的那种轻松愉悦的感觉,一定是在这两件事后才有的。十多年来,人世风云不断变迁,许多小时侯发生的事情早已堙没无存,但记忆印石上刻下的这两件事逾时越久,印象越深,抹不去盖不住,甚至在他后来与一位北方女孩谈恋爱时,这两件事还会象不安分的兔子从记忆深处蹦出来,睁着滴溜溜转的红眼睛,望得他心惊肉跳,情不自禁发出一声又一声的叹息。 有山必有水。山高林密谷很深,但不显宽,水位也不高。若是逢上天时不好接连几天不下雨,那水就流得可怜啦。山脚有条曲曲弯弯的小河。村里人都叫它 河 ,其实称它 溪 才更恰当。水体清澈,可以见到溪底卵石细密的螺纹,生活着许多鱼类。 黄角刺 滑溜溜的,有黑有黄,肉最香。 西斑鱼 身上黑白花纹相间,肉肥嫩;还有一种 红肚西斑 ,只在涨水时才会出现。 红鼻唇 顾名思义,鼻子和嘴唇都涂了口红,身子漂亮极了,淡蓝、深紫、雪白的鲮片错落有致,象穿了一条素淡雅致的衣裙。 夸海 一身银白,嘴巴阔大,遇到险情游动起来奇快无比;平时则呆呆地伏在石缝间,一对胸鳍微微摆动,保持身体平衡。溪里还有小虾和螃蟹,耀武扬威挥舞着铁钗,虎视眈眈,样子很吓人。夏天是捞鱼摸虾的好时候,身子埋进水里,既可免去炎阳的暴晒,又可捉鱼游泳享受天赐的乐趣。当然,也因贪玩误了做活,少不了会挨父母的鞭击和责骂。这条小溪,对夏天山里的孩童来说,永远充满了挡不住的诱惑。 白色的浮子在水面一起一落,鱼儿游到钩边一点一点地试探。食物很香,是一种身黑腹鼓的水蜘蛛。一个小男孩在溪边翻看形状各异、光溜的小石块。水蜘蛛一般就躲在石头底下乘凉。阳光蹲着身子,跟在他身后。一只水蜘蛛突然钻出来,细长的黑腿迅速跑动。阳光高兴地大叫,:哈!啊 逃哪? 手却极小心地往水蜘蛛身后围过去。水蜘蛛跑到小男孩面前,身子一缩,躲进石块底下。小男孩的左手搭在石块上,右手向石块底下摸去。阳光生气了。 是我先看到的! 拿起一块小石头,向石块砸下。他以为小男孩的手会松开,但是没有。小男孩 哇 地一声嚎叫着,捂住大拇指,痛得在地上打滚。水蜘蛛没逮住。血,一滴一滴在石块上绽放,红得灼目。钓鱼的男孩扔了钓竿,光脚在炙烫的石头上猴跳跑过来。阳光脑子里热烘烘一片白。阳光底下阳光木然站着。他们嘴唇做着各种变形。阳光只听见一大片闹哄哄的风响。他们的表情很着急。阳光觉得头很晕。 这是第一件事。长到那么大,阳光从没想过自己竟能伤害人。但眼睛一闭只要想起那只往下耷拉鲜血喷涌的大拇指,阳光就惊恐不已。阳光对自己说:这种事情以后不允许再有了。阳光是这么做的。但是谁又能防范那些因由无意而犯下的错失呢? 第二件事应当发生在1979年,也是夏天。午后天空咋咋乎乎气势吓人地落了场雷阵雨。风歇雨住云开,碧蓝碧蓝的天空拱起一条七彩虹。美丽的彩虹一端搭在对面山头,另一端向天外伸去。 老人说:去天堂走这道。 天堂啥模样呢? 不愁吃不愁穿,要啥就有啥。 那时阳光还没有光速的概念,但已认准天堂是个好地方。要是走上虹桥登上天堂,该是一件多么美妙的事情!阳光这样想时,眼睛就谗谗地仰看它。 阳光的心思并不只在山外。在平面的二维空间里想象,不安分的他还想向三维飞腾。山外的世界很大,有许多希奇古怪的趣事儿。彩虹那头的天堂很美,美得让人想跳出这个尘世。 阳光早就想去爬一爬彩虹了。 第一次谈论国事。大人说越南鬼子是毒蝎,以前帮它打老美,送了多少粮食和武器。现在反而枪口一转,打我们了。小伙伴几位也就义愤填膺,把越南鬼子臭骂一顿,说他们比毒蝎还黑,良心全让天狗给吃啦!其实连越南在哪都不知道。 骂完之后一抬头,咦,彩虹还在天上挂着呢。 爬彩虹去! 这真是个振奋人心的好建议。阳光的话刚出口,小伙伴立时响起一致的欢呼声。 彩虹的一端悬在对面山头,大家的目标自然就是对面山头。可是,要从这边山腰走到那边山头,可不是吹口气那么轻松的事情。山路很长,高低不平,曲里拐弯。大家得先向山脚走,过溪之后,才能往山顶攀登。小孩子兴致高,又好奇,所以也不在乎脚程长,路难行。一路上有说有笑,净想到天堂后的美事。 溪水已经泛黄。上游雷阵雨比这里势头大、时间长。泥沙俱下,水位缓缓上涨。小伙伴们站在溪边不下水,怕溪水越涨越高,淌了过去回不来。静静的七彩虹仍在天上诱人地悬挂着。阳光下了水,说好的事情怎能翻悔?何况,天堂,正在虹桥的那一端召唤他呢。不去看个究竟阳光实在不甘心。阳光最后气呼呼地冲小伙伴们嚷: 你们去不去? 面面相觑他们没有响应。阳光扳着小脸,神情严肃地说: 你们不去,我自己去! 在小伙伴的目光中阳光一步一步向溪对面走去。 水位越涨越高,流势越来越急。阳光步行的身子开始摇晃,没走出一步都要用出很大的力气。阳光小心翼翼地向前淌着。 有两位小伙伴也下水,加入阳光的行列。 正当他们站立在溪中间的时候,岸上的几位突然叫起来: 彩虹没有了没有了。快回来你们! 眩丽迷人的七彩虹刹那之间消散了开去,象一个转瞬即逝的梦境突然溜走。天空蓝得耀眼,那片清清爽爽水洗过的颜色很安静很神秘地注视着三个在混黄势急的溪水中怔怔出神的小孩子。眼光感到非常遗憾,恍若有失。突然,恐惧疯狂撕扯阳光的心。阳光觉得有股神秘的力量要将他连根拔起,交给水流。阳光的脚板紧紧抵住溪底的石头,不敢移动分毫。溪水越漫越高,不见下降的趋势。水面黄黄的有几处还一圈一圈转着黑色的漩涡,要把阳光跟溪水抵斗的意志尽吸了去。阳光觉得天旋地转,身子从没这么轻过象片叶子一上一下就要漂走。阳光孤立无援号啕大哭了起来。这是阳光第一次对死亡产生恐惧。那一年阳光6岁。阳光是被路过的村人救起的。惊恐不定的阳光被抱上岸后,好半天说不出话。 阳光第一次意识到绝美的东西是要以生命为代价的。6岁那年阳光在水里挣扎的情景在他以后的梦中经常出现。这辈子阳光渴想去天堂,终难如愿,因为他更珍惜自己的生命。既然天堂只是一个美丽的梦想,那么还是到山外去吧。 祖先当年既然把家园安在山里,就注定阳光要为实现自己的理想苦苦奋斗。阳光是不甘心终老天年把看一眼距村庄三十多里地的柏油马路当作最美的想望的。小伙伴们讲他 狂 。阳光觉得很奇怪。他觉得自己并不狂,到山外去,去实现梦寐以求的理想是自自然然的,只要是个人,都会这么做。阳光直到1997年当上中尉警官还不明白为什么这么多年来别人只要一说起他,就讲他 狂 。他爱的和爱他的女朋友也这么讲他。 阳光的故事很贫乏。阳光的舌头天生就不是讲故事的材料。因此很抱歉,阳光的故事你们听起来也不见得怡情悦性。阳光只是阳光,在他对自己名字怀揣无穷无尽光彩夺目的联想的时候,阳光只想着一个事情:我要到山外去。1973年2月27日是一个好日子。这一天太阳从东方升起,阳光笑得很感人,笑得让人心里甜滋滋的象正在谈一场热火朝天的恋爱。 一直到1996年夏天,阳光都是在学校呆的。从农村到县城到上海,从小学到中学到大学。学校是一个大筐子,装了阳光17年的生活内容。阳光经历的东西别人都经历过,阳光没有经历的东西别人早已体验。阳光啊只是阳光,他严格分清白昼和黑夜。阳光只在太阳底下生活。原谅他,我们可怜的饿阳光。命中注定我们可怜的阳光是要四顾茫茫站在那个 循环 的终点。 阳光的一个远房亲戚60年代到了趟上海,回去以后把这当作毕生至上的荣耀逢人就说,一直唠叨到80年代初。他死的时候笑得很满足。老人无疾而终。 阳光已不在意山里和山外的区别。甚至,常常怀念他的故乡。阳光现在知道,只要真正拥有了自己,无论生活在什么地方,都是一样的。大学毕业后阳光到了部队,戍国卫边巡逻在边防线上,今年春节没有回家。阳光对女朋友很好。女朋友夸他一身橄榄绿,很帅!阳光听了很开心。 阳光在阳光中诞生,在阳光底下生活。他很善良,对人仁慈,不愿去伤害任何人。阳光很纯粹,还不知道怎样面对人世间的争斗,他没有防守的能力。现在的阳光不爱多说话。我对阳光说: 你呀你呀,以后该怎么办? 言语之间不胜感慨。 有一个事实是阳光永远不敢面对的。1994年阳光大学放寒假回家,翻看父亲1973年的记事本,2月27日一栏中,父亲用兰色圆珠笔工工整整写着三个字。 生旸,雨 我宁愿相信这是父亲的笔误。爸,您写错了。 阳光他不敢提。 赞 (散文编辑:散文在线) 春之消雪 春之消雪,多了 遥念,欲说还休。遥念,就在那片雪原之上。雪还真是很美,到底是春天… 等待 等待,是一种坚守,执着于某种信念而不离不弃。可能因为某一种承诺,也有可能因为某一… 要善于倾听不同的声音和意见 我于10月6日 发表 了一篇 游记 散文 :《 满眼 秋色 美如画》,不少 文学 网站 得到了… 读《廊桥遗梦》 “当白蛾子张开翅膀的时候,可以来找我,随时都可以”。我想,如果我是一个男人,当收… 从今天开始,我要快乐 很早以前囫囵吞枣读过《呼兰河传》,记得当时心情着实沉重了好久,具体是哪些人物引起… 得病的时日 这两天接二连三的打喷嚏,我说是有人在念我,别人都说我有病,最后医生也说我有…

Seven days

There are 365 days in a year, but how long do we spend with our parents? According to my own statistics, the time I spend with my parents is only about 20 days on and off in a year. I was really ashamed. Although it was only a hundred miles away, I seldom left time for them. Usually it’s just a phone call, a few chatting to ask the body to ask about life. I always find some excuses for myself. I am busy with time and too tired to take a bus. My children need to accompany me when learning …… although these objective reasons exist. Sometimes they even get busy and make a phone call after half a month. However, parents often make phone calls to ask about the living conditions and children’s growth and education and so on. Years later, my parents took time to stay here for seven days, which was also the longest time I spent alone with them after I got married. We went for a walk together. They followed me as if they were taking me when I was a child. My steps were faster. They fell behind a bit when I turned around. There was a steep acid in their hearts: they were really old, and there would be no more vigorous pace. So I slowed down my pace and walked beside them, listening to their nagging family brothers and talking about the worldly wisdom in the village. I bought some vegetables and daily necessities through the supermarket when I came back. My father carried a big bag of things when I was holding my little niece. Every time he walked a few steps, he changed his hands, and there was something more than ten Jin which made him tired and breathless. My eyes are fashionable: when I was young, he often held me up with one hand and kept turning in the air. I persuaded him to put the things aside for a while and I would come back to get them. He refused to take them to the downstairs stubbornly. I found that his back was no longer straight and bent. I went to take a breath. He didn’t worry about telling me to go downstairs. I said no, you go back and have a rest. When I came back, he had been waiting for me in the cold wind, and insisted on sending my breath upstairs. I argued with him that I could carry this weight. He was duty-bound to grab the gas cylinder with both hands. When I was going to sweep the floor, I found that the floor was clean and bright, which was obviously just cleaned. I came back a little later, and the meal was already well prepared. When I complained that they didn’t have a rest, they always said with a smile that these little jobs were nothing. Every day when the child is out of school, they always go out early to wait outside school, and meet the child’s small wishes and buy what she wants. One sentence he often said is: you are not around us, and we have never hurt children much. And constantly pointed out that my methods of educating children were not peaceful enough, and told me that I needed patience to treat children. My father and daughter were blowing bubbles together, watching cartoons and playing badminton. I was watching silently, as if time went back. When I was young, my father often played with me and always waited for me at the entrance of the village at the end of the night self-study. We watched TV and chatted together in the evening. When talking about the relationship between children and parents, I inevitably started complaining about some trivial things with my husband’s family. My father always said gently: every family has a hard book to read, and everything always needs tolerance. My mother would add: think more about the benefits in everything, and it is also a blessing to suffer losses. Seeing their experienced faces deeply impressing the wisdom accumulated by years, I felt relieved instantly. Too many details, too many pictures, in this short seven days. The most impressive section I remembered was that in the public service advertisement on TV, relatives kept calling back, just asking Hou Xia’s old mother that her daughter could not come back, and her son and daughter-in-law could not come back, my grandson just said a few words and hung up. The old mother said, busy, busy. Then you sit lonely in front of the TV without program. The voice-over is to stop your parents from feeling lonely. My mother seemed not to understand clearly, so she glanced at my father. My father only said one word, it was too lonely to be accompanied. At that moment, my eyes became wet, and warm liquid fell down hot. Seven days is just a small fragment in the boundless wilderness of time, which is not worth mentioning; Seven days is a big shock in my limited life, which will last forever in my heart. It was these seven days that made me understand how selfless my parents’ love is and how selfish I am as my daughter, it also let me know how to make up for my shortcomings and repay my parents. Although they don’t want to pay back. I don’t want this kind of regret if my son wants to be filial and doesn’t care. I will accompany them through the dusk of life with more seven days, just like they accompany us to the dawn of life with countless seven days. Like (prose editor: yuiran) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Passerby,

From night to Dawn, from birth to death, everything seems so long… looking back carefully, why am I so old? A lot of things that should be enjoyed and tortured seem to have gone. I can say that I have never had a memory… so do it and cherish it! Under the dim street lamp, the ethereal and indistinct eyes stared at everything empty. I took a deep breath. Noisy and noisy, there is some vitality outside, but this is not what I want, I am a lonely Walker I prefer quiet, life some people regard it as a kind of enjoyment, some people regard it as a kind of atonement… in this era where many dreams cannot be realized and many pursuits cannot be understood, I believe it is a kind of atonement. Maybe maybe, there are more …… time has passed and I am faced with choices. I don’t understand and don’t want to accept. I can only cry hysterically in my heart… but no one can see clearly. What else can’t I accept? Back, fog… black dress. If he was still a passer-by in those years, would he still remain natural and unrestrained in the past? I lowered my head and kissed my left hand in exchange for the promised life of forgiveness, this atonement… a passer-by …… all fantasies will come to an end one day… don’t pretend to be deaf,,, Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

You are my tears for a summer

The sunshine in summer is very dazzling. It passes through the cracks between leaves, pierces into my eyes straightly, enlarges in the center of my pupil, and deeply penetrates into the deep dark whirlpool. It was such a cold night again. I vaguely saw myself standing in the corner filled by darkness, who was once full of youth through the huge gray-black and glass. See that light yellow paper note that on your 0.5mm of black water refill outline of 7 words: I am your m sand. I saw the Ink ink pen was filled with blurred marks by tears, just like the thin white fog in the morning of winter permeating in the air for a long time. Those subtle emotions which could not be understood kept moving in the center of this mist, and they showed their unique breath in the air. At that time, on the paper paper wet by tears, those sorrows which were hard to release in my heart were reflected clearly in my eyes through the carrier of tears, there is light flashing in the eyes, just like the shining stars beside the moonlight, jumping in the lost people’s psychology and beating in their chest. With a kind of motivation to survive, they were supported to go through the most difficult time. That piece of paper has always been forced to exist in such a form. They are like being wound up by time, and then tightly fastened there with nails. However, I saw the dark yellow attic in the century-old house being protected in a nearly uninterrupted way. The famous painting on that old wall. The firm and reliable promise fell unprepared at an almost incredible speed. It fell on the dark yellow floor with a bang, destroying a famous painting, an old house and people’s nearly conceited self-name. Just like those things that should have been done but not done, those emotions that should have happened but not happened, those people that should have appeared but not appeared, those promises that should not have been invalidated but failed. All of them ran away from the original life track when they were caught off guard, leaving the old people, old things and old promises sighing in the cracks of time. But now I am standing in the hot and dry sun to see your almost blurred face, and your breath is clearly lingering in my breath in a clear way. I stand in front of you, in a nearly stiff awkward posture. After your eyes hesitated for a long time, you finally turned elsewhere. In the second I passed by, I remembered that there was a scene in the article I once wrote: they met by accident, his sight stayed on her for a while and finally left. She stared at his eyes tightly, trying to find the warm memory of the past, but at the moment when he was too late to touch her eyes. She sighs of relief. Then under his surprised eyes, she walked with her injured leg numb and stiff trembling. From that moment on, she knew that this man in this life and this man who left vigorous memories in the first half of her life had nothing to do with her since then, these semi-real words imprisoned us. I couldn’t see the emotion in your eyes, so I heard her laughter echoing beside my ears. In this competition of youth. I finally lost!? Lose love and lose yourself. But at this time, you saw the back I left slowly without nostalgia at all, just like the smile of me and you. The past of the world of mortals was just an insignificant scenery. At that moment, I suddenly remembered an article named “Three o’clock in the afternoon without cherry” in summer with short hair. She wrote in the last paragraph: I hung up the phone and suddenly wanted to eat some cherries at 3:30 pm in the light wind and clouds, but I didn’t have cherries or love. I looked at the cherry blossoms in full bloom in the distance, and those memories were in full swing on the tan land under the flowers. At this moment, I think I have neither Cherry nor love. But I burst into tears for you for a summer. Like (prose editor: prose online) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…