Silent memory, singing in the fleeting time

The night is like water, you can hear the sound of wind drifting, lying on the bed, tossing and turning, it is difficult to fall asleep. Many flexible words were knocked out, and there was an unspeakable dependence on words, like opium numb his sensitive nerves. I don’t know how to start, but it’s hard to predict how to end. Unload the disguise of the day and see the empty heart. I want to escape, but I don’t know where to escape? Sad melody is like a snake winding around my heart, sucking the last warmth. Familiar People bring strange smiles, and people come home in an endless stream, like a group of moving ants. Looking at their happy smiling faces, I felt that I was abandoned on the edge. Appreciate a kind of numbness, an extreme pain. I learned to smile with tears, but I was mistaken as mature. I hesitated round and round, and couldn’t find a place to stay! With the increasing of words, the heart is becoming more and more lonely. The days are passing away in a trance. Unconsciously, parting is just around the corner. I still need to face many strange faces every day, shuttling back and forth among the surging crowd, feeling like a fish leaving the water without knowing where to go. I don’t know what to do too much, but I am mistaken as confident and free by others. I have always been kind-hearted, but now I become a little silent. I was worried that I would lose the ability to speak one day. My eyes full of melancholy were speechless with the world, and my memory ran aground slowly! I once thought that opening my heart could dispel the shadow of my heart, but I found that there was always an insurmountable gap between my heart and my heart. Was it that I didn’t trust others easily or others didn’t believe myself. I don’t know when it becomes so difficult to communicate with others. I don’t want to stretch out my hands and hold the ice. I don’t know who is cheating who? Even if life deceived me, I would continue to go on. Tell yourself that life shouldn’t be so decadent, and there is always hope. But I always see the flickering shadow before my eyes, my heart is covered with dust, and my eyes are innocent! Recently, looking at things that have been tangled with me for more than ten years, and seeing the rainbow in the wind and rain, I finally got a look. I heard the answer I wanted as I wished, but I questioned myself, why can’t you be happy? Is it because of his miserable ending? Or am I sad for my painstaking efforts for so many years after seeing the ending? At this time, I don’t know! Seeing what he deserved, I felt uneasy for a moment. If I wouldn’t be so persistent, maybe he wouldn’t be so miserable. But thinking of what he had done, I really couldn’t bear what he had done! It is not allowed by the world. This may be that good will be rewarded, and evil will be rewarded! Recalling myself standing in the corner of Spring, laughing and watching the flowers bloom over and over again, that beauty is always enchanting and strong. However, the closer you get to the flowers, the farther away you feel from me. I can only stand deep in the flowers, holding my body with both hands, watching all the flowers bloom and fall quietly, and all the creatures bloom in a flash! I once raised my head and looked at the busy butterfly in the flowers. I didn’t know whether this dancing could change back to the looking back of thousands of flowers. I feel that the flowers bloom in a flash, and the flowers thank you in a flash. Life is also such a process of flowers blooming and falling. I try my best to trudge through thousands of mountains and rivers, and through thousands of risks and hardships, I pursue fame and interests. It is also for this tone. When everything is so close to me, I find that my life has been empty, leaving only the memory of tears! Those pure smiling faces have become rigid under layers of hypocrisy. Everything becomes no longer pure, and everything becomes no longer fresh. Only the strong waves surround me again and again. The fragrance like Gardenia has belonged to the long time, and what left me was the ever-stopping but messy footsteps. I once wanted to get close to the depth of flowers and felt that the depth of flowers must be infinite beauty and scenery. However, the more you walk, the closer the flowers bloom, and the more you walk, the stronger the smell of flowers. Not everyone can appreciate such flowers, and not everyone can capture the beautiful flowers! Water shore, Yangbian, regain yesterday confidence, let the wind mentioned. Recently, my mood was very plain. Because my daughter was depressed, I felt a little more annoyed and uneasy. Some people like spring and this spring season. I don’t like spring, which is too short. Although this spring was full of green, watching everything that happened didn’t add pleasure to me! In contrast, I prefer the long winter, which is the simplest and quietest season. However, many people don’t like it, and their love is different! My life should be very happy. I know better that there should be no reason for sadness, but there is always a slight worry hanging on the corner of my eyes and eyebrows, which can’t be hidden even if I want to hide. So there is always a time when memory will dance in my heart, light and soft, a hard to say spread wantonly, may bring a grain of dust, just fall into my eyes, finally confused my heart, the messy mood at night made me sleepless! Packaged! Wrap it up and throw it into the deep valley I forgot. The world is so small that even the corner where I hide can’t be found? Only in that clear and clear moonlight night, can I dare to let those sighs come out long. When you calm down, the faint and sour pain in your heart will break through the Gate of Tears, as if you clearly know who is this pain? It seems that I really don’t know why? Unfold and roll up the memory over and over again. Will the cloud of memory also sink and drop raindrops! I often look back after a long journey. Looking back, I can see the traces left by time, which are so profound that people can’t help themselves. Sometimes, after being rampant, I hide aside and lick the wound. Then comfort yourself slowly. Later, I found that casual hints can really deceive myself! Finally, I understand something. Only those who listen can remember some promises and remember them so deeply! In fact, I want to draw a full stop here and tell myself that it is enough. Once is just once, the meaning of turning back is just to see how naive I was in the past. I should look forward and see those who love me. What kind of mood should it be, and who gave up the trace. How to erase those memories branded in my heart? I walked through that street again and again until once, when I passed again, I didn’t look back. Maybe I will tell myself that it is not forgetting, but a deeper memory! I can be different for something. When I am desperate for a goal. My heart is full. Maybe some years later, there will only be those sour sweetness left in my memory. I used to be so hysterical in that spring. I used to work so intently for the future. I said, what do I want to leave in this spring? Maybe it’s my tears, or maybe it’s my smile. This spring is destined to be special. I am afraid that I cannot walk out of this spring or tomorrow. Time pushes me tightly, making me unable to breathe. Even the air is a harsh pain. I shouldn’t give myself the humble excuse of vigilance at this moment. What a ridiculous reason! I will stick to everything I want as always! The road of life will not be perfect, just like the vast sea. On the calm sea level, I will suddenly turn over the surging spray and the Blue Sky by accident, it is inevitable that a faint white cloud will drift across. In short, life will not be smooth. On a smooth road, there will always be bumpy mountain roads, insurmountable flood peaks, unpredictable setbacks and failures. However, I still believe that as long as I have the spirit of perseverance and perseverance to the end, I will definitely use my strong feet to walk through the rough mountain road and the insurmountable flood peak, finally, the door to success was knocked.

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