Scattered time

About Family affection: in the morning, I am wake up in a state of silence. I don’t have to get up early for more than half a month. Without the constraint of time, it is really easy for people to be distracted, I feel that I have been in this state for a while. I came back late last night and went to my parents’ house to see my sister. I knew she would go back this morning and didn’t want to stay. Let’s go. Come when it’s time to come and leave when it’s time to go, let it stay in the bottom of my heart quietly. I have always been in the care of my relatives, and I always love them in my heart. The ignorance in youth and recklessness in youth make people calm down and think carefully when they reach middle age, all of which are inseparable from such a heavy emotion. My sister often says that I am too simple and immature like a child, maybe! My emotions always fall out of control in the family affection, which seems like my grandmother. In my childhood, the person I saw most tears was my grandma, no matter when she worked silently or when she was scolded by Grandpa for no reason, grandma had always been the one who shed the most tears among my relatives. Later I had a family and a daughter. It seemed that I really grew up day by day, and then I realized that sometimes the tears were sweet in my life, but sometimes it is sour. Ha ha, it seems that yesterday’s tears made me look so different from being a sister. Ping was most ashamed of my tears. She has always been like this. Thinking about this day, it was still true. When the door was opened, people went to the building. Only this family affection could keep warm in people’s hearts for a long time. About Parents: I liked my father when I was young, and I hated my mother in my heart. My mother was irritable and easy to slap me. There are three children in my family. I am older, but I am too big to look big. Maybe it is because of the first child in my family, or maybe it is because of my inherent domineering, in my impression, I really didn’t look like a sister. So at that time, my mother would beat people like being mad, and it would be my disobedient child who was beaten in general. I once thought that my mother didn’t love me and treated me badly. Sometimes I even hated her, which seemed to last for many years. Now I think, in fact, my mother is always my mother. Only when I was very young, I developed this kind of wayward and strong character. When things happened, I would not detour, and I didn’t understand the reason of enduring a calm moment. I feel that once a woman becomes a mother, the world and people seem to be changed under the shadow of maternal emotion. It was also at this time that I realized that the word maternal love can contain many things. It is true that a mother loves children. Only a mother who loves children, and no child who is not a child, I became a middle-aged man after a few years, it goes without saying that parents are old people. They start to feel that no matter life or other things, they are not what they once thought in their hearts. They have the heart to give up, but he was afraid that no one could lose his parents in his whole life. What’s more, his life was not so dull that he would be knocked down by life if he gave up lightly. I have always respected my father very much, and I once wanted to be a person like my father, because I like to be a teacher, but it is a pity that I can only travel like this in my life, it seems that hope and disappointment always pass me. But it doesn’t matter. I vaguely feel that my father’s trace can still be seen on my body. When I was 40 years old, I only hoped that I could spend more time with my parents. My parents could be healthy and happy, that’s all! About friends: I think of my friend Hong in my school days. On the evening of early winter, when the last ray of light of the Sun cleared away, Hong and I walked in the campus hand in hand, and we shouted hard, in the open field, the Echo reminds people of the children’s radio drama “The story of Taro” on the radio in childhood. I was sixteen years old that year, and red was my best friend. Later, I went to high school and went to technical school. Gradually, we had little contact, so many years later I didn’t know where she was. Later, many people looked like my friends, there are also many emotional details between us. Several people often talk and laugh together. At that time, I was still a music teacher in middle school, and then we all had children, some people’s careers began to be divided into Huang Tengda, some people’s lives also began to have some subtle changes, and some people also began to be driven by personal interests, it makes the emotion between friends become a little vulnerable under such circumstances. I miss that period of youth, and at the same time, I also think of many people at that time. I just gradually find that some tacit understanding in the past is no longer there, and some feelings in the past seem to be gradually far away from my heart. I would not seek it deliberately any more, but occasionally I would think of some people, some people that seemed to have nothing to do with me. After decades of life, there are already few people who can go together now. However, these are the only people that make me truly understand what friends are from the bottom of my heart, what is daughter easy to get, confidant hard to find. Gradually, I found that I was not a person who was good at making friends with others. I had been running a kindergarten for some years, but I was just circling around in the same place, it’s not bad or bad to manage this so-called business, which is hard-working but does not have much benefit. The big deal is to live a life. There are not many people I meet every day, but it is really not too few, it’s just that I don’t have any friends among them. I just know someone. It’s ridiculous to think about it. When talking about friendship at the age of nearly four or ten years old, it could be regarded as an age that can be seen clearly. Fortunately, I can still have a heart-to-heart person. Although there are few people, I feel that this is enough in my heart! About Love: typing these words seems to make me feel a little old-fashioned in my heart. This eternal topic is not strange to even the children in kindergarten. But here I still want to say, even if I take a look at my life, when I sit here typing, my lover is busy in the kitchen with sweat all over his head, the dish washing basin in the kitchen is leaking all the time today. This guy is always the one who takes the lead in such trivial matters as life at home. A man who has seen his middle age has gone through, and we have been with each other for many years, love or not seems not very important, but I know that this man will not be happy when I cry, and he will be happiest when I laugh. He and I have an extraordinary tacit understanding. When I was young, I thought love was beautiful and romantic, so that I had deliberately pursued this kind of emotion in my heart. Living with my lover in these years, I still feel the feeling of happiness in the tense life and not rich life. Sometimes, each other keeps warm, which is especially important in love. Thinking of that first love many years ago, my heart became very calm and calm, and even had a feeling of complacency. If it weren’t for that love, or in such a state, my lover can’t walk into my life. A gambling marriage has made my life happy without thinking. About a beautiful woman: I am not a beautiful woman. There is no doubt that I am not a woman who can dress up. In fact, most of the time I can’t do that of some people, stick to it for your appearance. Over the past few years, with women, the most frequently talked topics were nothing more than beautiful clothes and beautiful faces, which I really didn’t have, but in my heart, I could not have them, it’s just that I can’t live like a person. I am a person, nothing else matters. There are too many beautiful women around me, and there are also many people I can call friends. I like the beauty of women, but most of the time I find that under the beautiful appearance, the heart is not bright, even a little filthy. If I live in such beauty, I would rather have nothing. Ha ha, let’s talk with a smile. For me, a woman who is less than 1.6 meters tall but seriously overweight, there are also people who say I am beautiful, that is, my parents and lover, my parents said to me: the big girl is beautiful, and I am still the same as before in the knowing smile of his rich lover. This is an expression that I can see even if he doesn’t say anything. Time goes away and love is in my heart. In the scattered time, check the trivial matters of the fleeting time. Everything comes from love. In the days of love, life itself is a scenery.

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