The bitterness of Leaving Home (Part One)

In the spring of 1999, after one and a half years in junior high school, I left quietly and left the junior middle school of M school that I dreamed. Ah! Ah! I said goodbye to the old middle school that I deeply remembered, away from its footprints, and went back to the top of the mountain with a muddled depression; At this time, I started to be passive again until I was disappointedly in the sleepless dark night sky, and I became a vegetative person who could not speak or walk. Spring, the gentle spring, has not yet come to the hot summer like lava, my heart began to collapse, and my heart began to be depressed. At that time, my mother asked me my plan after the new year. I didn’t know how to answer it. My uncle also asked my mother the same question. I seemed to think they were angry with me and looked down upon me, so I don’t want to talk to them, but they are my parents and brothers and sisters. Sometimes, before I have to answer them, I have to make a lot of mental preparations. I must bear their scolding or their criticism of me. Whenever I go to my uncle’s or relatives’ home, I feel a little worried or afraid of something. But half a year is almost over soon, and the May is also very hot, so I feel very lonely and boring after staying at home for a long time, my parents also felt confused because I didn’t have a job. After thinking about it, I didn’t have any friends to introduce it to me. Later, I found my parents and thought of my cousin D, so at that time, they thought of entrusting sister-in-law R to ask D to take me to work in F’s city. F City is the most difficult and beautiful County located near Fuchun River, and it is also the administrative center of my hometown. Although such a city is my best dream and one of the cities I most expect to come to, due to the poor economy in life, or because I have no familiar relatives in the city, so I had to stay in the countryside for more than half of my life. Until I lost the financial subsidy for studying in junior high school, I was forced to quit school and had to stay in the countryside for half a year, fortunately, under the leadership of D, I came to live and work in the city for the first time. Since Mrs D heard that I was bored at home, he rushed to his hometown to urge me to work part-time in the city the next morning. Because I didn’t have my own opinion, it was not a promise or no. Maybe at that time, I had been dreaming about life in the city, so there was nothing to refuse. On the evening of that day, my mother prepared my heart for me. Under the kerosene lamp, she mended my shabby clothes while sewing the holes in the clothes, at the same time, he nagged to me: a CHENG! You have never been to the city. If you have anything to do, you must listen to your cousin’s arrangement. Don’t go out without a home at night. This will make your eldest brother worried and also make us anxious; besides, your life problems must be in order, and your dressing and hygiene must be kept clean and fresh, otherwise your eldest brother and friends will look down upon you or hate you. I said: Oh! Know. But Dad said, “you know now, but when you really arrived in the city, did you forget what we said as if you had forgotten everything in your ears? I hope you are not. If you are like this, dad will not care about you. It was the first time that my father let me drink at night, and it was also the first time that I got drunk. I went to sleep unconsciously that night. When I got up early in the morning, the sunshine was very bright, so I breathed fresh air outside, waiting for my mother to make breakfast and have a good meal so as to say goodbye to my parents, along with D’s eldest brother, they went down the mountain to work in the city. On the way my mother sent me, I still repeated what I said last night. Dad didn’t say anything, but he still took out 500 yuan of cash from his pocket to my hand. When I really took over, D returned the money to dad and said: I’ll come up with a Cheng’s money. You can spend such a little money yourself. It’s OK to buy fertilizer. Dad said: how can I be so embarrassed? Or accept it! D said: Don’t worry! I’m here! I will not treat him badly. I will save his money for him and put it at home. Dad put the money back into his pocket and watched us go down the mountain. I looked back at dad and forgot my mother. Sometimes, I really felt my tears streaming down my face and my mood gradually hurt, looking back, I walked towards the downhill road, go! Go! The downhill road seemed to be particularly rough, especially rugged, and I didn’t calm down properly; It was really a painful situation that was hard to leave, which made me feel uneasy. I carried my bag, took off my luggage and went on the road one after another. When I arrived at the foot of the mountain, I comforted myself and said: Since I am going to work in the city, I should go because I should relax myself, why do you have to be so reluctant. There was a stream at the foot of that mountain. I looked around beside that stream. It seemed that I was the last nostalgia here. My heart was full of expectations and ideals, what’s more, my nostalgia reminds me of the beauty of my hometown. The gurgling tears were like Yongquan, and my surging mood was like an oath from heaven here, and I firmly obeyed D’s order, the bus from the direction of Huyuan to Ma Jian’s flight went directly to the city of F. We arrived in F city with great strength. We got off the bus at F city’s long-distance passenger station and saw a huge city at the first sight. I think it is huge, that’s because I saw the most perfect city for the first time. Maybe for the people in the city, the urban area here is not big, because it is much bigger than it, such as Shanghai, Hangzhou and Nanjing. But the first time I saw flowers, it was because I had never touched the city, and the first time I met a lot of fresh things, I felt that this was my dream paradise. D got off the bus first, so I got off the bus with him and walked along the streets with him. I didn’t know what road and Lane it was. I always felt that I was wearing Bagua hutong, let me touch the north but not the East, while touch the east but not the north, I feel very confused. When I came to a river, high buildings were erected on both sides of the river. I always thought it was near the Fuchun River. I really thought I saw the Fuchun River. I sighed at that time: isn’t this the only river in Fuchun River? I didn’t see how big it was? D said: this is not Fuchun River, but a amaranth River. I said: Oh! That is my illusion. After saying that, I followed him, but when we turned right in the middle of the crossroad, it was a long mountain road with lots of vehicles, the numerous mansions also made me feel the perfection of the city, the prosperity of the economy, and the hardship of starting a business with each other may make me hard to imagine, as if I came to a colorful world, when I came to a paradise in my childhood, I saw the dream of heaven dancing under my eyes. Passing along Longshan Mountain, there was a shopping mall crowded in and out, I looked up and saw the words of Fuchunjiang commercial city written on the upstairs of the commercial city. I seemed to know that this was the most prosperous shopping mall and the busiest pavement in F city. I wanted to say at that time: F City, what an amazing F city. I came to this strange city. I really feel that in this strange city, I can absorb your sunshine temperament and be a giant of a city, I want to show myself well. When I didn’t see enough bustling outside, I was led to the commercial city by D’s, which was full of vegetable stalls with vegetables, eggplant, garlic, scallion, tofu and so on on on the vegetable table, sister Tang set up a stall here. Mrs D led me here and talked with her for a while. At that time, sister and brother-in-law were having lunch. When they saw us coming, the elder brother-in-law put down the bowl and chopsticks in his hand and told us to sit down. Then, the elder brother-in-law said: a CHENG! Have you eaten? I haven’t answered yet. Mrs D listened to me and said, “We haven’t? The elder brother-in-law said: eat a little here, so as not to go home to burn? Sister also said: Yeah! Why not eat a little here? How troublesome it is to go home to cook? D said: Don’t be so polite, go home and burn it, it doesn’t take long, fast! When he was about to leave, the elder sister and the elder brother-in-law picked up some fresh vegetables and asked you to bring them back to cook for us; He and I left the stall of the elder sister and their couple, I went to another meat stall and bought a few Jin of meat, then left the commercial city, and unconsciously crossed a main road to a lane called Zhou Jialong, walking through the alley of that alley, we reached D’s residence. The house where D lived was an underground garage, which was very untidy and smelly. I really wanted to move out, but firstly I didn’t have the economy, secondly I was not familiar with the environment here, sanlai was my parents’ thousands of orders, which made me firmly remember their words. I had to live in the room reluctantly if I was asked to listen to D’s words. When I walked directly into the air from the outside, I felt really uncomfortable. I was afraid of going into that stove-like room, which really made me die with anger and shame. When I was dried by the sun in the hot sun, D said: why don’t you come in? Come on! Wash the vegetables! When I entered, I told him that it was too hot inside, and I couldn’t stand it. D continued: it’s hot! Have electric fans! Don’t be afraid of heat, get used to it after a long time. It was the same when I came here, but we could stand it if we persisted. Men are not afraid of hardship or tiredness. We all practice it in this way. I said: Oh! So he came in to help him cook. After lunch, he went out alone and asked me to have a good rest at home for a day and start work tomorrow. I agreed to D’s. When I was bored, I would watch TV in the room and occasionally read the story books brought by my family, let’s take a look at the residual reading energy in primary and secondary schools. One day passed unconsciously, and soon it was dusk, and D came back to cook. I don’t cook much, so there are a lot of housework done by Mrs D alone. I can only clean the bowl and chopsticks by myself, or clean the room or so on, but I don’t know much about others. After dinner at night, Mrs D and I had been watching TV in bed very early, and we couldn’t choose any good programs on TV. After watching for a while, I fell asleep unconsciously. All of a sudden, I woke up in the middle of the night. I wanted to be convenient, but I couldn’t find the toilet here, so I was in a hurry. I searched for it and finally found a convenient corner, when I came back after pulling, a patrol car happened to pass by. I was found by the policeman and caught as a thief. Two policemen came out of the car to check my ID card. I went indoors obediently, took out my ID card from my bag and handed it to them. They took out the registration book, I wrote down my name and ID card number on it, and then asked my family situation and address again and again. Then they asked D’s again and asked his ID card, he was asked about his work address, and all the inquiries were very detailed. Later, they even mortgaged D’s ID card and imported a TV set, asking him to verify the invoice and instructions of the TV set, to return his things to him. He had to accept it and let them take it at will. After D’s patrol left, he said: why were you so careless that the patrol team found out? I said: I don’t know either! How did I know that the night police in the city were so severe? If I had known that, I would not come out earlier. D continued: Be smart next time, don’t be so dull? Know? Said: Oh! Knowing that the light was off, we went to sleep. In fact, it is difficult to sleep at night, because the suffocation of this room is also difficult to get rid of at night, unless the temperature outside drops to about 278 degrees, it is possible to be more comfortable after midnight. When I woke up, the first thing I did was washing my face and brushing my teeth. Then I carried a few gray buckets and a big spade, follow D’s and lead me to take the first job. In fact, I didn’t know what hard work and helpless life were. I had never tried it. My parents also gave me up as a saint at home. At that time, I really felt lucky, but now I can only obey D’s leadership and become his apprentice. I came to the gate of the city, and then turned to the old road of South Gate Street. The entrance of South Gate Street was against Fuchun River, and this spacious river was the beautiful Fuchun River, and the position we stand is the ferry dock on the bank of Fuchun River, because its direction is against the South of the city, so the road it refers to is also called Nanmen Street, which is frequently near the Bank of Fuchun River. I am not here to enjoy flowers and Moon, nor to travel on vacation. I am just a wage earner who works in the tall buildings near the Fuchun River, I have no fate with the most beautiful Fuchun River. I climbed to the sixth floor of this building and opened the door. Several carpenters had already started work here, and their decoration had also gone halfway, there is only one bathroom and one wing room floor tile left when I come here. This is what D and I will start working together. The first day I went to work, I just carried cement bags or sandbags, or I also carried spare wood. In fact, this kind of work was very tired, which made me a little overwhelmed. I really wanted to escape home, I wanted to leave and went back, but I was penniless and didn’t know how to go home. In order to prevent me from escaping home, D tried every means to make my parents not give me money before coming, but now I understand that I have already regretted it. I sighed deeply and said: Hi! Helpless! Helpless! Really helpless! I really feel that I have been cheated, and there is a mute who is impatient to eat yellow Lotus. On the first day, I was very tired, and my legs were drawn, which made my spirit very tired. On the morning of the next day, I didn’t want to get up any more. It was D who woke me up from my dream and urged me to go to work. I got up in a daze and went to work in a daze, on the way to work, the two feet were rising and rising at the same time, which seemed a little insensitive. I can’t lift my spirits at all. It seemed that I was going to collapse, and I disappeared in this world immediately. I was very afraid that such boring days would repeat the increasing number of times. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. 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Thank you all gentle

Suddenly I realized that what I loved most and what I was most obsessed with was the pain, the stubborn and tough pain of my lonely but unregretful life. No one can say love casually, no experience, how qualified to judge. In real situations, language is always pale. Self-righteous empathy is actually ridiculous. What I love is just the warmth. Do you understand the real warmth. In front of the warmth, everything fights openly and secretly, wins and losses, naive and sad. Be yourself, be independent and proud, love but not lost. If you have your own territory, no one will be the whole of whom. The purpose of carrying together is to keep warm for each other. Only when you know each other can you bring each other old. Life can’t be settled, and I can’t understand my happiness, my pain and how to live. If my insistence is regarded as nonsense, then I will smile lightly., Explanation redundant. Since I don’t know each other, I will leave eventually. If there is no one to cherish, then love yourself. Indifference is just to understand the ridiculous trick, and there is no extra energy to distribute to irrelevant people. Not at the same level, not worth wasting life. Worldly, mountain Savage, reproduced. Leave the red wine and green in a natural and unrestrained way, just for the peace and true silence. But in the end, there were only complaints left. It is indisputable, but I also miss the world. Because it is not without love. I love it so much that I can’t stand it any more. It is the body that shouts for pain, but it is also the unsettled mind. I have given up so much, but I still have to take away the only treasure. How can I be reconciled. But what can happen if you are not willing to do? You are destined to leave those who love pain and love. Such a sincere soul cannot defeat God’s gentle leaving. Love, how can it be. It turned out that the coldness that I had cultivated all the time collapsed in death instantly. The hustle and bustle of the traffic seemed to be bustling in another time and space. It is better to live simply, but it is difficult to change from simplicity to complexity and from complexity to simplicity. Don’t waste your mind for unworthy souls. Life is too short to leave more meaningful things. In fact, there is warmth. Fortunately, he has a similar soul. He knows your pain. Live Well for the people you love and love. Don’t care about those vulgar things, tired of yourself, not worth it. Thank you for accompanying each other. Thank you all and domesticated. Su Weizhen World Women’s Like (prose editor: yuiran) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…

Poor children of diamond

Every time I look up at the starry sky, I will remember the deep night sky. Through the stars, the gray figures in the distant wheat field were looming. In the dim night, the sound of insects around my ears was deafening. On such a quiet night, the touch between our soles and the land was full of ambiguous smell, and the gentle grass gently stroked our ankles, A green coolness rose along the trouser legs, but we did not dare to move our bodies easily, not because we were afraid of disturbing the silence at night, our every move like peeper, they will wake up the gray figure inadvertently. They are lovers, or else, how can they go out for several nights. They would appear in my wheat field at a fixed time every night, just like someone has set the alarm clock for them. For so many days, haven’t they found the danger lurking not far away from them? Is it because they focus too much on their love and love, and have no time to understand everything around them? Or is it because their home is nearby and there are still starving young children to take care? I don’t know all this until now. Because when the two homemade muskets in my companion’s hands flashed sparks at the same time, their lives had been fixed on this night forever. In a flash, the air was frozen. I believe that in the perception of those two rabbits, time and Kong’s family had been torn apart. Turning on the switch of the flashlight, the snow-white light penetrated through the darkness of the night like an arrow. The faint figure became much clearer instantly. Uncle Liu with sharp eyes suddenly called out, hurry up, those two guys haven’t died yet. I don’t know what caused us to break out completely. Nearly away, we arrived unexpectedly in less than one breath. At that time, I found that the two rabbits had already lost the ability to escape. Thanks to the shooting method of their companions, both of them were shot to the deadly part. When I returned, the big guys were all in high spirits, but there was an uncomfortable feeling in my heart. Through the flashlight, I saw the rabbit’s blood still dripping. Looking at the bright red liquid as my blood, I unexpectedly had an inexplicable fear. When arriving at Liu Shu’s house, everyone suggested to cook these two rabbits immediately. Somehow, I unexpectedly resisted the rabbit meat that I had been expecting for a long time. I just found an excuse to go home. Because of one person, the road was much quiet. Looking up at the starry sky, I found that there were much more stars than usual. In order to calm my mood, I turned off the flashlight. When the Darkness gradually dissipated at the beginning, I raised my head to look at the sky again. I found that the Cowherd and the Weaving Maid were so far away from each other. Maybe because of the sunny weather, the stars in the sky were much brighter than before, every star is shining like a diamond. However, on this night full of diamond rays, we unexpectedly wiped out a love with our own hands. The lovers who love each other will become the sacrificial relics of our love by accident. I don’t know how many massacres are going on at such a night, but I believe that this kind of massacres will stop one day because of the shining of diamonds all over the sky. The life of Ershan village is monotonous. Facing the cycle of no new ideas year after year, everything people do is insignificant. Like my parents, farmers who work at Sunrise and rest at sunset cannot feel this kind of monotony. For an ethnic group who digs food in barren land, there is no time and no need to enjoy this kind of luxury pain. After school, I went home, finished my meal and finished my homework. I started to do nothing. Seeing the sun getting lower and lower and the light getting darker and darker, I knew that this day was about to reach the end. My activity space will be compressed again. Maybe it is Epiphany. I think I should make good use of the time that my parents can’t supervise to find happiness for myself. Under my request, my father promised to help me make the top. Looking at a dull piece of wood, which turned into a spinning top full of beauty between the ups and downs of my father’s hands, my heart was full of excitement. If I were now, I will certainly write an article to praise the greatness of people. It was the longest time for my father to make a gyro for me. When I thought that I would have a toy of my own, I could show off among my classmates, I was extremely excited. While imagining the appearance of this great product in my heart, I urged my father. My father made a spinning top for me and went down to work. I took this hard-won product, but I didn’t know how to make it rotate. Luckily, a cousin nearby came to my house to borrow a hoe. Seeing that I was holding a top but didn’t know how to play, he made another whip for me to turn the top. Finally, everything was ready. I learned from those senior students. First, I wrapped the top with a whip and twitched the whip hard. Under the effect of centrifugal force (which was known later), I made the top rotate, then he constantly lashed the top with a whip to make its rotation continue. Maybe it was because of too much investment. I didn’t feel it even when it was dark. When my father came back from the ground, the moon had already come out. Seeing that I was still playing, my father was very angry and took away my top. At that time, I had no courage to argue with my father at all, so I had to sleep alone. The next day when I went to school, when the teacher checked my homework, I was punished for not finishing my homework because of the top. Since then, I have learned my lesson and played spinning after doing my homework every day, so I have never been punished. Later, I learned to make the top by myself, and I also knew that if the steel ball inside the bearing was installed at the bottom of the top, the top would rotate longer. Also because of playing too late every time, Father’s blame sounded in his ears almost every day. The pressure of life is great, and many memories of childhood are already far away. I can’t remember when I started not to play spinning. But I always remember the concentrated expression when my father made me a spinning top, and the tone of hating iron but not Steel when my father blamed me for playing the spinning top for the first time. Looking up, the sky is still as blue as when he was a child, and the light of the stars is still as dazzling as diamonds. However, no matter how late I played outside, I seldom had the chance to hear my father’s blame. Walking into the present toy store, various kinds of spinning tops always make people shine at the moment, with sound and shining, but no matter how expensive or beautiful the spinning top is, when holding it in hand, it was not as kind as the simple wood top my father made for me that year. However, nowadays children don’t play that kind of spinning anymore, because of the monotonous appearance of that kind of spinning and the difficulty of making it, instead of spending a lot of time to make a simple lump of wood, it is much cheaper than buying it in a toy store. Third, the process of growth is extremely slow. Even we can’t feel its existence. Because of the slowness, when I began to establish my own gender concept and knew what boys should do, I had already fallen in love with girls’ games. This kind of love cannot be changed, just like planting seeds in my consciousness. When I found its existence, I tried my best to eradicate those seedlings, I feel it is deeply rooted. Just Like Love in the adult world, we know that it will exhaust our psychology, but we still have no hesitation. Jumping sandbags is a simple game. In the nine squares we drew, we repeated monotonous movements over and over again. In retrospect, the maze of life is just like this. Cycle your own cycle and repeat your own repetition. Every time you enter the space you Once entered, there is always some novelty caused by joy. Among a group of flowery girls, the distinctive I always give people a refreshing feeling, just like a little green among big and small flowers in the blooming season. Because I always like to hang out with girls, I was once dubbed as a fake girl when I was young. Many years later, when I entered puberty, I also had long hair because of my obsession with the gangsters explained by Yi Jian. Maybe it was because I often stayed with girls when I was young. If human life could be cut down, I would like to cut down my childhood memories and seal them in a box with only my own keys. When I grow up, I am used to seeing too many separation and combination in the world. Those sad stories of wind, flowers, snow and moon will be staged around us at any time, and I will feel numb when I see too much. In the adult world, what is wrapped by desire is not the relationship between men and women, the deception and betrayal under the tender appearance, let the already dirty world add more dirt. Some people say that people who prefer words are incomplete, and without strength, a fragile heart is hidden under the sudden appearance, especially for women. Maybe for this reason, I was not as strong as a man recognized by everyone. In my world, I was always full of the sentimental feelings of this woman. Maybe, it is because of those childhood experiences. Maybe, in those childhood games, I was inadvertently infected with too much feminine belonging to girls. Every quiet night, when I pass under the dormitory building, I will always hear the sleepiness of those adolescent children. Maybe, in their dreams, there are also memories without male and female boundaries. Because the night sky above my head is still spreading quietly like when I was a child, and it is decorated with stars shining with diamond rays as many years ago. Fourth, I have never counted how many footprints I left all the way from the mountain to the river, because I always hate the monotonous work that is difficult to achieve the goal. Just like now, I have lived in this world for almost three or ten years. I have never sorted out how many people I have known and how many people I have forgotten. Countless days passed by me, and I almost forgot their existence. I, who lived in the track of life, was always the ignorant teenager at that time. When I was walking on the river beach, my eyes never left my feet, and I carefully selected the stones I needed. After a while, there was a thick pile of flaky stones. I held those hard objects tightly in my hands, grasped the edge with my fingers, then opened my arms and threw the stones out fiercely with the explosive power, looking at the parabola of stones gliding in the air, my eyes were full of expectation. It was different from what I expected. As soon as those stones touched the water surface, they sneaked in fiercely, leaving a splash and my disappointed eyes on the shore. Children’s nature is to have the courage to try, and I am no exception. Soon I adjusted my mood. Pick up the stone again, throw it again, and sink to the bottom again. I picked it up again and threw it out again. I don’t know how many times it failed. Finally, a stone bounced on the surface of the water instead of falling into the bottom of the water by Express, then slowly fall down, and then sink to the bottom of the water. Seeing my progress, my mood improved a lot, so I continued my throwing movement. Maybe because of the better control of angle and strength, the Stones I threw began to bounce on the water more often. After many efforts, the Stones I threw could finally jump over a dozen times to reach the other side of the river. I saw the Stones touching the opposite stone wall, when I made a clear sound and slowly fell to the bottom of the water, I felt a little satisfied in my heart. Children’s World, because of simplicity, does not have too much expectation. As I get older and older, the world I contact with becomes wider and wider, and my desire for the world becomes more and more. Because I want too much, but I often can’t get it, my heart is always filled with disappointment, I gradually forgot a lot of happiness in my childhood. Every time I walked the road I once walked, the original situation would appear in my heart again. But when I walked to the river again and picked up the stones, but there is no courage to throw it out. Although the spray on the water surface is still as white as before, under the sunshine, the water surface is still shining with Diamond light. I know that everything here has never changed. What has changed is myself. Walking in this troubled world of mortals, my childhood innocence has long been sealed up by time, there is no simple happiness as before. 5 in the silence of the night, I was always awake, counting those distant memories, and then eating one by one. I felt that my body seemed to expand a lot. Nothing is more interesting than sorting out memories. Seeing those scenes passing through in my mind, the unpleasantness shown seems to be much lighter. I don’t know what time has stolen from our hands, whether it is the drifting youth or the simple happiness in childhood. I don’t know. I only know that many things have changed, there is more indifference and suspicion among people. The once heroic words have been erased by life, and countless beautiful agreements have gone with the wind. What we can grasp is just this mediocre life. When washing clothes for my daughter, I found that I couldn’t wear the original clothes anymore, because she was growing up slowly. Because of selfishness, I fled from my hometown. Maybe she would never have similar experiences with me, but I knew that she would certainly have her own happiness,, I hope that those simple happiness belonging to her can accompany her for the whole life. When I opened the window, a cold winter that had not faded came to my face and I couldn’t help shivering. Looking up, in the distant sky, there was a star still shining, shining like a diamond, exactly the same as what I saw when I was a child. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. 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Gentle season

A blue sky, a handful of white clouds, a bunch of sunshine and a handful of green leaves are all gentle scenes. Early winter is the gentle season. Different from the scene that the North was covered with snow, the early winter season in the South was so gentle. In particular, the sunshine in the afternoon broke through all the complexity and entanglement that shouldn’t have. At three o’clock in the afternoon, holding a cup of tea or water of moderate temperature, sitting on the balcony, looking up at the blue sky, the white clouds, and the bunches of golden light falling from the sky. At this time, you are undoubtedly the simplest Supreme between heaven and earth. No one competes with you for the warmth and gentleness in this huge space. These gifts from nature are treasures exclusively belonging to you, as long as you feel it with heart and experience it with heart, it is the greatest treasure. If there is a pot of evergreen beside you, please carefully see if it grows new buds secretly when you don’t pay attention to it? The light yellow leaves, under the irradiation of golden light, burst out a hint of shiny oil. At this time, the breath of life covers you so heavily. Is there any reason to struggle with your mind for the fame and wealth that were originally imaginary? Look at the blue and white in the sky, how ingenious and seamless they are, and how poetic and beautiful they are to foil each other. They are the leading roles of each other. In the boundless sky, they never argued for who had more, and never argued for who was the dominant color. They dared to be the foil of each other and support each other, so they were all leading roles. In this gentle season, there is no vitality in spring, no warmth and vitality in summer, no beautiful artistic conception of falling leaves in autumn, and no bleak and cold winter. This is the transition of autumn and winter, and the intersection of season and season, so it has the poetry of autumn and the stubbornness of winter. In such a season and scene, you might as well slow down, walk out of the house, go to the mountains and wilderness, and see the bleak and strong nature near the cold winter; Go to the streets and alleys, look at those steps and faces that are already blind or still full of passion in this gentle season; Go to places with sunshine and green leaves, and you can see the breath of life at a glance. When you go to the spacious grass, don’t take your dirty clothes into consideration. Make a pillow with your arms. Lie down and let the sunshine spread all over your body. Look at the blue sky and white clouds, and let them see your smile and relaxation. Let your gentleness be closely connected with the gentleness of all things in the world. People walking through the red wine and the materialistic stream are easily swept away the original innocence and persistence by those hurried steps and endless wheels. This is the most unacceptable phenomenon in the progress of social civilization. Our progress and progress are nothing more than making our body and mind feel more comfortable, and making all people feel simple but really happy. But nowadays, how many people have lost the ability to find simple but really happy? Go out for a walk, have a look, and use your eyes to freeze those tender images that are still walking in the streets and lanes, so as to awaken the yearning for beauty and tenderness that is covered by anxiety and blankly in daily life. You will find that, in fact, everything is still so simple. The most beautiful smiles, blue sky, white clouds, sunshine and green are your unique wealth as long as you experience them with your heart. However, those bustling luxury, bustle, success or failure in the secular world are finally nothing but illusions for a moment. Like (prose editor: yuiran) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…