Dear, I forgot!

Dear baby, when I sit by the bed and watch you sleep peacefully, I have a lot of words in my heart to say to you. Just a few minutes ago, when I was reading in the study, suddenly a strong sense of regret occupied my heart. I came to your side quietly in self-accusation. Dear baby, I think I am too harsh on you. When you got up in the morning, I blamed you for your slow movement. When you wash your face, I blame you for washing your face too fast. When you were eating, I blamed you and thought you didn’t like eating anything. When you were ready to go to school with your shoes on, I blamed you again and thought your shoes were not clean enough. When you put your schoolbag on the ground to clean shoes, I blamed you loudly, and thought you threw things casually on the ground. Your face is full of grievances and tears. But I said crazily: every morning, I was in a good mood, which was disturbed by you. You gritted your teeth and said very hard: Goodbye, mom! I frowned again and said impatiently, let’s go, let’s go! In the afternoon, all this started again. When I got home, I began to clean up the house, wash clothes and cook. You knocked at the door and came back, excitedly wanting to give me a hug. I was very annoyed and didn’t look at you. I turned around and left, and you stood there in a daze. I blamed you for not hanging your clothes to the designated place. You didn’t put your shoes neatly, and I blamed you again. You opened the piano, hoping that the piano would please me. I blamed you loudly because you played the wrong sound. Shouting that you are reluctant to eat or wear to support you, but you are not willing to study hard. I also said that I would smash the piano and never let you learn! You learned to leave timidly and didn’t say goodbye to me. You just said softly: I’m leaving. I suddenly had a feeling of disappointment. I recalled what I had said just now. That was not what a mother should say. Mother Cizi was Filial. How could I have the image of a loving mother! Do you still remember? When you go home at night, you walk to me timidly with sadness in your eyes. When I looked up at you, I felt that you were bothering me, and I felt very impatient. I asked you angrily: What do you want to do? You said nothing and ran back to your room. I suddenly felt that the air in the whole house seemed to be stagnant. I want to know what are you doing? After a while, a paper plane flew out of your room and fell steadily under my feet. I picked up the plane and unfolded it. I found a few lines of words: Mom, I’m sorry. I can’t do anything well and always make you angry. I’m really trying my best, for the sake of me as a child, please give me time and wait for me to grow up, OK? I will try my best to be what you want! Tears slipped down instantly. What happened to me? Unexpectedly, I forgot that what I saw was only a child, a child who spared no effort to please me. How depressed her heart should be when she worked so hard. What kind of fear should she be in her heart without seeing her mother’s smile. A sharp pain gripped me. I can’t think or breathe. I feel scared. I suddenly found that a habit had dominated me, blaming you all day long, hating you and treating you nitpicking, but you still needed to ask for my forgiveness. Postscript: no wonder my daughter said in a composition that she wanted to adopt a child or a dog, so that when her mother was angry, she could find a place to vent. I always thought that I loved her, and everything I did was for her. Now I think about it, I’m afraid that inappropriate love is also a kind of torture and injury! Later, I had a long talk with my daughter. She said, “Mom, think about it. If you can’t get along well with your daughter, who else can you get along well? My daughter’s words taught me and shocked me! Recently, I read some books about Zen and found that childlike innocence is the closest to Taoism. We adults have already made our hearts dust and lost ourselves in our daily life. I found that only in the process of blaming my daughter can I get a kind of psychological satisfaction. Only in this way can people realize my contribution and existence. I built my sense of self-satisfaction on my daughter’s pain, I am What a selfish mother! Like (prose editor: yuiran) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. 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A leisurely afternoon

The continuous rain makes people feel like wearing a layer of mist. I haven’t met him for a long time. On a sunny day like today, I took my child out of the outdoor, picked up my belongings and came to the outdoor square. On the square, the crowd of people circled all kinds of kites above the head with leisurely steps. Colorful and colorful kites blew on their faces with a gentle breeze, which was a little warm and cool. She picked up a kite and walked around the runway of the square with her child. The kite flew round and round over the top of her head, round and round, however, it is still unable to exert and display its own energy to a certain height. Maybe the edge of the square is too small, there are too many branches of trees, or the luxuriant leaves and dense tourists stand together, and the kite flying upward is still firmly hanging on the treetop. In the afternoon of having fun and playing with children, it is a happy afternoon; In the time of relaxing and wandering, it is a happy and relaxing leisure time; In the afternoon of knowing that children are learning well, it is a happy and comfortable afternoon. It is hard to have a relaxed and leisure mood in leisure time. You can go out of the outdoor and go sightseeing like this. You feel that everything is so fresh, and it seems that everything is so hopeless. What I saw was also that there was no chance of fresh fragrance and vitality. How I wish that when I read the Willow tip, there can be a trace of Green Willow, which can make people realize that it is spring now, and the time today is the bright and sunny afternoon spring. However, in front of the fact, the hanging withered willows and the polluted rivers are showing people that nowadays people are not waiting for the cold spring flow instead of spring. They still have to be frozen for a period of time. Lifting and twisting the small bag makes people’s hands feel a little cold and painful. When the walking steps slow down, they are already close to the children’s practice and study. She turned around and stamped slowly on the high-rise building. She came to the nearby practice classroom and waited quietly for the children’s learning minute after second. In a flash, it was already the dusk near. In the evening Square, there are children’s smiling faces, melodious music, dancing steps accompanied by people, stretching arms, kicking legs and feet, it is also a good recreational activity for leisure and fitness. The time of a day is just a moment after another, a constant repetition of taking turns and changing one after another, sometimes it can be said to feel the monotony and boredom of life, but when people who can go to the square dance with each other, though they are ordinary, they still play a regulating role of fitness and entertainment which should be combined with work and leisure. Like (prose editor: prose online) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…