Middle-aged confusion

Time is moving slowly, moving so slowly that people can’t feel its movement. People’s age is just like this clock. Year after year, you can’t feel its speed. But one day, you will suddenly be surprised. Why don’t you feel that you are in middle age? Therefore, a kind of sadness, a sense of melancholy and a trace of loss came to my heart. In middle age, people have many physiological phenomena changing quietly: for example, their eyesight is getting weaker and weaker, their memory is much worse than before, their hair starts to become bald and white, and wrinkles on their faces are getting more and more, and deeper and deeper, the skin is loose, the eye bags come out, the crow’s feet are on the corner of the eye, and the functions of all aspects of the body are gradually declining. A kind of anxiety and anxiety that is hard to tell is quietly generated, and with the fat body, the loss of appetite, the confusion and loneliness in your heart always come to your mind. No matter how hard you try, you can’t recover this decline. I have heard a campus song named “I will grow old one day” before. The song says like this: I will grow old one day, which I can’t predict; If I come that day, don’t worry too much. Will you just shake your head? Think about whether you were ridiculous in the past. When your white hair covered your eyebrows, what was the smell in your heart. You should pay attention to what you should pay attention to, think about what you should think, forget what you should forget, and get what you should get. While you are not old now, you should create something; While you are young, try to find happiness. The songs are sung to those students who are in their vigorous years, and also encourage those young people who are wasting their time, not cherishing their time and not cherishing their lives. The songs are fresh and smooth, which is of great enlightenment and educational value, after listening, it is also thought-provoking. Now, when I am no longer young like many middle-aged people and carefully taste this song, I have a helpless mood, a sigh gushing into my heart, and a kind of youth no longer exists, people have come to middle age with emotion. Recalling the once brilliant youth, the lost years, and the remaining memories, and thinking of the passionate youth and infinite beautiful dreams sung in the song. Now I can only bury myself in the deepest part of my memory and no longer speak out. At the same time, the middle-aged time I longed for when I was young is not as gorgeous and splendid as my dream, but more confused. During the work break, every time I hear colleagues talking about how excellent and sensible their children are, they always take the first place in exams, either monitor or study committee member, and then look at their own children, being naughty, naughty and playful makes people hurt their brains and break their hearts. They will be called to school by teachers every three or five times to talk. Let’s take a look at each of my classmates and friends who have houses and cars, have successful careers and enrich their daily lives, while they worry about their unsatisfactory work, worry about their children’s study, and sigh secretly for the insipid life, some people sigh with emotion that middle age is the most difficult time for ordinary people. It is true to recall these words carefully, and it is true at all. Compared with others, money, honor, status and other things, I don’t have any of them, even my hobbies are less than others. However, there are many diseases such as high blood pressure, high blood sugar and gastropathy. What is left for yourself after working for decades? In addition to illness, helplessness, and loss. There are also dreams buried in my heart that cannot be realized, and career work brings me sadness. Till now, the shadow still covers me, sometimes as if the disease is aching faintly. At the same time, with the growth of age and the decline of physical strength, I feel that I am more and more unable to work. I always feel that there is a feeling of depending on others. I am ridiculed by young colleagues from time to time, and I also worry about mistakes in work, which makes the leaders dissatisfied. Nowadays, with the emphasis on youth and knowledge-based informatization, the middle-aged workers in the enterprise are becoming less and less advantageous, and their experience and work experience are left out like expired food, becoming less and less valuable. Facing the burning momentum, energy, energy and other aspects of young people, they knew that they couldn’t compare with them, but they still supported them with a swollen face. In order to retrieve the former advantages of some middle-aged people. However, no matter how hard they tried, they still couldn’t resist the young offensive, so they surrendered quickly and threw in defeat. A feeling of fearlessness and disobedience was revealed. There is a good saying: there are flowers in spring, moon in autumn, cool wind in summer and snow in the east. Yes, as long as we are people living in the real society, we can’t be free of troubles, let alone the ordinary middle-aged workers like us. There are parents in the upper class and children in the lower class. For life and family, even if there are troubles, you can only choose to endure them. But sometimes you feel uncomfortable and oppressed like a stone in your heart. Entering middle age, the most regretful thing is the decrease and estrangement of friends. The social contact is getting narrower and narrower, and I often regret that I didn’t make more friends when I was young. So now, except for the colleagues I met at work and the people I met for some reasons, the rest are all strangers, the comfort and warmth brought by having friends are getting less and less. Every time in leisure time, there is a sense of loss that has something to talk about, and loneliness welled up in my heart. When entering middle age, even if the working family is good enough, I will feel that life lacks color in my spare time. In addition, personal emotion has been replaced by family affection, and personal emotion has become less important. Maybe, when people reach middle age, emotion is the most helpless and boring period. In short, the once turbulent emotion has been buried in family and responsibility. Although the emotion is as plain as water, it still needs to be maintained diligently, because at this time, the responsibility is more than everything, not for yourself, but for the family, for the sake of the children not being hurt, you can only wronged yourself. When entering middle age, most of them are the same as me. Because the career has passed its peak period, the room for improvement is relatively small, and at the same time, they have to undertake the important task of foster father and son. Therefore, I often focus on the aspect of family life. I don’t have the past enthusiasm, enthusiasm or dedication to work, I often turn a blind eye to my work, and don’t want to make progress or make progress. I was surrounded by a large number of middle-aged people with a mentality of not seeking meritorious service but not seeking anything wrong. Of course, middle-aged people also have the characteristics of middle-aged people. For example, middle-aged people are not only mature, steady, restrained and indifferent, but also have certain social status, strong sense of responsibility, and also know how to be considerate and rich in inner feelings. In the face of disappointments, you can always face them calmly. You can also restrain yourself and adjust yourself. You can always find ways to relieve yourself. You can always manage your emotions, comfort your inner wounds and get out of the mire of troubles in time. All these factors are not possessed by young people and cannot be understood. Entering middle age is not nothing, nor is it what the above said. There are so many confusion and regrets. At the age, most middle-aged people have no more worries about getting married and starting a career, and their work is also in a semi-retired state. At this time, living oneself and exploring the value of life are the true meaning of life. Let the middle-aged people like me be less confused and more happy! Like (prose editor: Ke Er) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. 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Approached Qianliang Lake

Only a few days after coming back from the flood control of bainui Lake in Xiangyin, the city dispatched another thousand cadres to the disaster area to help increase production and income and rebuild their homes. Although I fell ill at the end of flood prevention and failed to recover, I could not tolerate a little retreat and set foot on the journey to Qianliang lake again. Qian Liang Lake is not strange to me, but it has been more than ten years since I adjusted the index. The flood in 1996 once made the lake of Qian Liang vast and suffered heavy losses. Although the dyke was not breached and destroyed this year, the loss of long-time waterlogging may be no less than that of the year before last. What kind of situation should the Qianliang Lake be like now, which has suffered two disasters in three years? As wearing the crown of the vice captain of the team, I really felt the heavy burden on my shoulder. On September 22th, 1998, we drove to Qianliang Lake. Entering the mountain, although there are many buildings in front of me and cement streets crisscross, I feel the vicissitudes and great changes brought by the reform and opening-up to Qian Liang Lake, however, I peeped into the recovery of Qian Liang lake which had suffered three years and two disasters from the deserted shops and the depressed streets in front of the door one by one. The 31 comrades who went to the Qianliang Lake task force all had a strong sense of mission and urgency. In the morning, I listened to the briefing of the farm leaders in the general field and made a brief Mobilization. In the afternoon, everyone went to the 12 production teams in the five severely affected sub-fields to carry out their work. The beautiful and rich Qianliang Lake was once the pride of Qianliang Lakers. There are six gates which contain many stories here, and the East Dongting National Nature Reserve which is well-known and well-known here. However, the most famous one is still the fertile soil which can not be seen at a glance. In this land, as long as you throw seeds at will, you can get a satisfactory harvest. Qian Liang Hu, the rich name, once let more than 100,000 people enjoy the joy of harvest, the glory of Labor and the longing for a better future. However, the ruthless reality of three years and two disasters also made them suffer the pain and sadness of disasters. But people in Qianliang Lake have their moral character and spirit. Beside the cane field which had been submerged for several months, a middle-aged man who was planting rape told me that although his family had no harvest, he believed that under the care of the party and the government, I will definitely overcome the difficulties. He said, Qianliang Lake is a good place, and our life will definitely be better. What a simple word, from his words, I felt a potential power. Yes, Qian Lianghu will be better. There are the correct leaders of the farm Party Committee, and the hard work of those grass-roots cadres who only paid 400 yuan for living expenses and still worked hard, with the hard work of those workers who don’t bow their heads or flinch in the face of difficulties, Qian Lianghu must be worthy of her beautiful and rich name. Chairman Mao Zedong once said that people, only people, are the driving force to create world history. In money and grain paste, I really felt the great power of the masses. When I approached Qian Liang Lake, the first thing I felt was a kind of obligation and responsibility; Facing Qian Liang Lake, I seemed to see her beautiful and splendid tomorrow again. I deeply wish Qian Lianghu! Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…