Depressed heart

I received a call from Xiao Xu in Dubai at midnight the day before yesterday, because the second visa application was not smooth, suddenly my mood became annoyed and depressed. And this feeling is so strong, even to the point of suffocating people. Maybe this is a kind of mood accumulation of many things and a long time! I think depression may be due to one’s desire? If one’s desire can be realized, I think depression will definitely be far away from oneself. Or a person has no desire at all, and just let nature go with the circumstances, then there may be no depression. When a person has desire, he will be disappointed, no matter what this desire is? Whether it is the pursuit of money, or the desire for emotion, or the concern for family affection. There are so many things in the world that it is really impossible to do as you wish. Therefore, when my desire is not realized, I will inevitably feel depressed! I was seldom depressed before, maybe because of many things and pursuits, I could easily get what I wanted, even what I didn’t pursue deliberately. I can always be grateful for everything I get, and I have never expected anything for what others have. Therefore, there is no disappointment and no depression. It may be that when people reach middle age, they have reached the age of 40 years, and many things have to be considered by themselves. I feel the burden on my shoulder is very heavy. Facing all kinds of responsibilities, when I can’t reach myself, when there is a gap between wish and reality, I feel depressed. I don’t know if my age makes me lose confidence? Or does your body make you begin to doubt yourself? Now I dare not say that I can do anything I want to do, nor do I dare to expect whether tomorrow can become a reality according to my wishes. This makes me suddenly feel that I am so small when facing the world? Is it so incompetent? After thinking carefully, I can understand my depression. I hope I don’t feel depressed any more, because depression is also an unhealthy mentality. I don’t want to be depressed. I have to admit that I am old and have limited ability to handle affairs. I have to face up to the environment I am in and not avoid the difficulties I am facing. In the future, in terms of dealing with people, we should be more kind to others, be strict with laws and treat others leniently. There are countless sleepless nights, and the Restless Heart cannot forget some trivial matters in life. I want to bring a ray of sunshine to make my depressed mood suddenly enlightened. I really want to welcome a wisp of breeze to calm my fidgety heart. Maybe this is just my own wish, but I hope it is not just a wish. Every day when the sun comes out, I welcome a new day and a new life. I want to spend it happily. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…