Fleeting wind

Three years of time is like a gust of wind passing by my ears, as if it is still echoing, but it has really passed. In this land of youth, gains and losses are still deeply buried here after all. There were surging words in my chest, but I often didn’t make a sentence. Just as I am familiar with all the notes, but I can’t play a complete song all the time. I didn’t keep anything, and I didn’t have complaints full of complaints, because time had gone without a trace. In my career, I changed my temperament and gradually saw myself clearly. The road under my feet wandered along the path of the campus. When I tried to look forward to a beautiful future for myself with the absurd assumption of finding the direction too early, confirmation is undoubtedly a miserable life. For many times, I hope that I am a high-speed machine, not a person any more, because people have too many concerns. Maybe today, due to the condemn of conscience, the annual rings are nourished in the time. Then, today is a victory for me. What about tomorrow? Will you abandon yourself in barren mountains and mountains due to physical and mental tiredness. Sometimes, when I wake up suddenly, my heart palpitations will be wrongly placed by me, which will eventually ruin me. I had to admit that I was indeed a loser in the matter of getting up early. There are always some people wandering around the campus like ghosts at dawn. They don’t sleep and play with the night. After all, the crazy killing could not cover the emptiness in the heart, because after the fight, the confused eyes would still drift around there. Now I won’t laugh at other people’s lives either, After all, everyone has his own way of living. You can’t say that people who play games every day are not happy, because happiness is very subtle. Maybe when he passed by and looked back, he would be secretly delighted because he used his youth to sacrifice what he loved, and later he might not have that passion any more. And I am also sticking to my own way of living, although it is a little difficult. I kept telling myself that I didn’t feel any difficulties after passing. Many things between individuals and the world are delighted to come again. Maybe they would not have lost so miserably at that time. But always delusion. Then, let it pass. People always have to move forward instead of sticking to the time they have passed. It should be remembered that some things have already lost. If they still hope to win back, then more will be lost, even lose your dignity. I remember that I once had a reckless affair at a warm-blooded age. I can’t recover all the lost things. Just meet the reality, but also unavoidably sentimental. Why does youth have to go through some pains to skillfully reach adulthood. Just like for many years, I was confused whether the fire brought happiness or pain to Phoenix. Some people are too fragile to go to the abyss in this ups and downs life. And I don’t know whether I will go on a road of no return like them. During the journey, there were indeed too many temptations to change the course of life. We thought we had found a shortcut. But after trudging, I found that it was just a mirage, It separates us from our dreams. Looking back, I have gone too far. Finally, I have to sigh that life may be desolate. Now, I think that in a few years, like many people, I will drag my tired body to work and get off work, just like a walking corpse. I will not have more opportunities to choose, as if I were trapped in it, busy for living. I don’t know if my smile will be sold to the secular world at a low price, maybe I can’t escape after all. My father and mother could be regarded as a promise or an appointment, and it was already a Convention during college that I talked with my mother on the phone. But when my subconscious took it for granted that it was just an insignificant phone call, it made my mother a little sad. Now, I can imagine how my mother waited patiently for the phone around her on March 8th Women’s Day. However, no matter how she waited, the bell was always dull. Or there was a sigh when it rang, and then some secular dialogue questions and answers were made. Then how could she read the text messages again and again? No matter how she read them, she couldn’t find out the familiar and unfamiliar names. Although my mother’s tone didn’t mean to blame at all, I still instinctively felt some subtle feelings for my son. Sometimes, I felt physically and mentally exhausted, but my efforts were not recognized. The tone of my mother’s accusation would make the conversation between the two fall into a long silence, while neither of them hung up, just waiting for the other side to ease their emotions and break the lasting cold war. More often, They turned against each other, and what they hurt was exactly the closest people. That person’s desire for a good life is even stronger than yours. Therefore, after experiencing so much, I also know that I have to accept it quietly, which may be another kind of love that is not pleasant to hear. As for father, maybe the hatred immersed in family affection has an end. After all these years, I felt relieved. In fact, there is no deep hatred between him and me. We are just a father and son who can’t express. He was called sick integrity by me in those years, but now he is the foundation of my life. He deeply implanted his stubbornness into my gene, so that we could face each other so hard for many years. Freedom flashed in my mind for countless times against the wind and walked towards the back of other places with morning glow. How heroic it should be. As you can see, in life, I am alone driven by freedom. I have met the question of why not try to love each other once. At that time, I just replied lightly. After graduation, after wandering for four or five years, consider settling down. Maybe I can’t do anything, but I will remember you, the girl for love. Lifetime, meet on on a narrow path, final could not be spared. I don’t know who my wife will be, but she must be kind, because she has to tolerate my exile. However, life often deviates from freedom. In fact, sometimes, I just hope that my independence has nothing to do with others, but there are always some people saying that there is no place to go, and these words push me to the counselor, and I am often at a loss. I have no way to investigate. Now this society has formed an interest-related body, and investigation will only make things more complicated. So, bear. People who are friends with me often make me feel guilty. Because a person who likes freedom often shows the silence of seclusion. Although this is misunderstood by many people, a consensus is formed when there are more people talking about it. After all, people live in the society. 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