Happy Free

In fact, I have its freedom, the freedom of happiness. All of a sudden, I really wanted to see the sea, just like an ideal generated in a flash. It must be realized immediately, and this suspended heart can land peacefully. I am not clear about the eagerness to see the sea. Maybe it is because of the missing for that person, the missing for that purple shell bracelet, and the feeling of recalling to fill this empty heart, which seems to be helpless, only his memory can be pinned in a panic; Or because his free heart has always been shaken to dizziness by typical urban life, he suddenly lost his direction and wanted to see the vast sea, looking for a answer. Then someone said that he would go to see the sea with me, although I didn’t know whether his intention was for me or himself. However, I did not refuse. Maybe I want to give myself a chance, or I want to leave loneliness temporarily. I never had hope, because I could live in such a desperate time. But this time, I held hope. So in the end, I was disappointed and could only blame myself for my rich imagination. However, it was clearly the real expression of eyes and gentle words. Could it be explained clearly only by one sentence of your emotion? Maybe there is indeed such a kind of feeling that you want to get close, but you don’t want to be together. But I am serious this time. They went to the seaside with their parents. They didn’t ask anything but helped me realize this small wish. In this world, only parents will pay for you without asking why, and let you rely on you at any time. My father drove the car while my mother sat beside him. They always existed for each other with tacit understanding, and then quarreled with each other for the divergence of turning left or right. But in a flash, you will see mom putting sweet food such as sausages into the tired dad’s mouth. At this time, I would exchange my eyes with my younger brother and couldn’t help laughing out. What a happy family. When I was about to reach the seaside, I had already smelled the sea in the wind. I stretched out my hand out of the window of the car and felt the feeling of being surrounded by the rush warm wind. There was a sense of security of landing. The silence along the way had the desire to speak. The sunshine at the seaside is always naked, which creates the emotion that the sea is so naked. It never hides anger or happiness, because it is free. However, I could only remain silent and never admit defeat, even tears were redundant cowardice. I am always like this. Anyone can see depression or even loneliness from my eyes, but he will never see weakness, because I will not express this emotion, because I have no freedom of the sea. I had walked to the seaside, but I had no desire to look at the sea eagerly. Maybe I knew it was already in front of me, so I was not in a hurry to get it. People are like this. They always pursue distant scenery and seldom regard the things in front of them as ideals, because they feel that they have already owned or will certainly own them. I didn’t even raise my head. My eyes kept following my bare feet stepping on the beach. A burst of gentle pain came from the soles of my feet, echoing the exhaustion in my heart. When my feet were receded and the sea water came back, my heart became quiet for the first time, although it was cold, but the heart suspended in mid-air has a feeling of completely landing. I felt my existence again, even though it had been forgotten by some people. Looking at the sea, I said, you really have no end. There was once a man who said that he would come to see the sea with me, but now I am the only one left. Facing the calm sea, tears cannot flow down. I endured the chill, soaked myself in the seawater, and tasted its smell, which was more salty than tears. I think the sorrow of the sea may be even worse. I wanted myself to float quietly, so I rented a swimming ring. When I drifted to the distance, my parents were waiting for me on the shore. I imagined their worried expressions, but I dared not to turn back. Because I tried my best to make myself not sad, but I no longer had the strength to pretend and make myself smile happily. Therefore, I don’t have the courage to look into their eyes. The Sun dropped from the top of my side gradually, turning from white to red, and the seawater began to rise. In the increasingly turbulent sigh of the sea, I drifted without thinking about time. With my eyes closed, I don’t know the direction. I really want to throw myself far away, even if the distance ahead is unknown. When I opened my eyes, the tide had not seen the sight and could not see the front, but I had no fear at all. My heart was calm and I couldn’t recognize myself. Because I was afraid that my parents were too worried, I decided to go back to shore and stay with them. When I had stood in front of my father, he was still looking far away, looking for my figure anxiously. I let out a cry, seeing his heavy expression, I immediately hated myself. I am totally wrong to be sad and depressed for an irrelevant person, but to worry parents who have been caring about you. In this world, only children always abuse their parents’ hearts regardless of time. I walked back with my parents and smiled all the way. Looking back to the ocean, you can’t see the end. I think I have its freedom, the freedom of happiness. poppy remember Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. 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