Pain

Pain, pain, pain! This kind of feeling is not the first time. It is just like acupuncture, and sometimes it is like knife, axe and saw. I know that this is the mark left by life and another form of experiencing life. I don’t know I am should appreciate life or hate life? As long as I feel painful, I will have a strange feeling: am I going to die? Although I don’t know exactly where the value of living is and what people live for, I still don’t want to die and want to live. Because, I know that life is not my own. People live with care and responsibility. I am not living for me alone. I still clearly remember the helpless and painful moments one by one, the suffering years, day by day, minute by minute, second by second. At that time, my body and mind were attacked by ruthless storms. At that time, I often felt cold, even in the hot summer. At that time, I often heard my heartbreaking voice, heartbreaking to despair and helplessness. Family affection and morality are like two swords hanging on my head all the time. I can’t surpass myself or the bottom line of being a human being to shout loudly. I am like a struggling fish, and I can’t walk out of the heart net that I weave for myself. Relatives, do you know what kind of blow I was suffering at that time? Relatives, do you know that my heart has been scarred? Relatives, do you know my desperate mood of losing confidence in life? Relatives, how do you know the sad feeling that my life is worse than death? However, the storm did not stop! Even as for growing! Do you laugh at others with sarcasm? Are you proud of hitting others and making her feel painful? However, how can I see that you smile at others? I asked very little, just a little bit, a little bit of warmth and love in the world, that’s enough. I remembered a fable story: the woodcutter saved a little bear, and the mother bear was very grateful to him. One day, the mother bear arranged a sumptuous dinner to entertain him. The next morning, the Woodman said to the mother bear, “You treat me well, but the only thing I am not satisfied with is the bad smell on you. Although the mother bear was unhappy, she said: As compensation, you can cut me with an axe! The woodcutter did what he did. Several years later, the woodcutter met the female bear again and asked if the wound on his head had recovered. The mother bear said: It hurt for a while, and I forgot after the wound healed. However, I will never forget what you said that time! Fable is naturally just a fable, but isn’t the truth it shows obvious? Language damage sometimes exceeds physical damage, because it hurts the heart and soul. When you act willingly and lose your temper to others, do you know that your language is like a nail hole on the wall, which has left scars in others’ hearts? Do you know that verbal injury is more serious than hurting human body, just like a female bear can forget the pain on her head, but can’t forget the verbal injury? Pain, for me, exists objectively. Including the body and soul, I am a kind person by nature. I don’t want to blame anyone, nor do I want to hate anyone. Staying away from harm is the best way for me. In a book, we can see the three evils of Zen, that is, to have a zen heart. First, we must be carefree, regretful and complaint-free. Remember the three noes of Zen heart. Do you have worries in your heart when you often look back at the internal photos? Is there any regret? Is there any complaint? I hope that I will always reflect on myself, clean up my meaning, and constantly purify, transform and put down my worries, regrets and complaints. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. Whether your mood is like a year, or… Forever military dream Forever military Dream (Ma Xiaochun, Kangle county, Gansu province) memories are like meteors, passing through the unmarked and blurred eyes, and the outline gradually… Spring rain I like spring rain like everything on the Earth. Just after the new year, the sky began to rain. I really like the spring in Jiangnan… Plucked the snowflakes of Dreams (modified) Near the new year, the first snow fell. I was surprised to read a long scroll in the morning, the white one is snow, and the gray one is tree… Self The fashion is transient, and the style is permanent. Things that can shine on others may not be put here. In…