A foreign land complex

Cao Wenxuan said in “The Front” that people have the uncontrollable desire to leave home. When people walk forward and wander around, they always miss the home that is going far away and has not been seen for a long time, home and Home. Every time I read this article, my understanding is also deeper. Hometown and foreign land have always been two stations on the journey of life. We always keep running in the season of repeated replacement in our own way like birds foraging for food, moving through hometown and foreign land, away from something, look for something, lost or never got. At the age of 19, it was the first time that I left my hometown to study in a different place. After four hours of bumping, the coach on the way threw me on the street where a child who lived in the countryside for a long time had never been. I was tightly wrapped by the galloping traffic and crowds in the not prosperous city, just like a young ant facing a dense and strange hillside. For a long time afterwards, I tried my best to find the rich verdant green shade of my hometown and the blue sky and white clouds growing on the head of my hometown in the broad streets full of noise in a foreign land, and the barking of dogs and chickens spread throughout the village at dusk, but a gust of autumn wind blew the memories of my hometown into the boundless sky one by one. With the perseverance and fortitude that my hometown and father taught me, I cultivated, sweated and rested devoutly on that strange land with my partners, waiting for the grains I planted to take root, sprout and blossom, results, then harvest, continue to work. Four years later, when my warehouse was finally filled with all kinds of food, it was approaching to leave. In the days when we were looking for jobs, we had seven brothers in the dormitory before and later. No one thought about staying except the boss, and they all ran out desperately. When we really wanted to leave the city where we had lived for four years, we began to feel sad. It seemed that when we left our hometown, there was an unspeakable unwillingness and concern, but the whistling whistle shattered all our emotions. Therefore, I came to a county in northern Jiangsu with a long journey heart and only a few tools. After finding my own land, I started farming in the same way. But this time is harder than before. We need to sow, irrigate and weed on a completely unfamiliar land, and we also need to ensure a good harvest to feed ourselves. Standing on the noisy street, listening to the shouting all over the street and looking at a group of strange children, I suddenly miss the sparse woods in my hometown and the amiable laughter of my relatives, and the birds and insects pouring in the moonlight, I miss the bumping all the way home and the moving when I stepped on the yellow land for more than ten years. I often cry and wet the pillow towel in my sleep. I also miss the youth and youth in college more. I miss the city which has accepted us for four years and was scolded by us for four years. Now it is as kind as my hometown. I used to say that no one would fall in love with it, now they all regret not staying there and expect everything to come back again, even if they walk the road repeated many times. But I can only miss it. I began to learn dialects and customs here, appreciate the characters and customs here, set up a home for myself here, and left the imprints of my nearly standing years here one by one. However, no matter how much I put into it, time will come back quietly when we don’t notice it. Now it is another four years, and the deepest thoughts in my heart are still my hometown and alma mater. But when I went back home occasionally, I felt a more timid feeling of being close to my hometown; When I went to other places, what I couldn’t put down was the small nest built in this county. Maybe we are destined to be wandering. Then we will examine the two words hometown and foreign land. The place where we were born and grew up is called hometown, and the rest is called foreign land. In fact, all hometowns were originally foreign lands, and the so-called hometowns were just the last stop for our ancestors to wander. I heard from the old that my ancestors went out to survive in a famine year of Qing Dynasty, and then settled their home in Tongcheng. Now I have found a hometown only belonging to him for my children, and he may also want to leave here to find a hometown belonging to him for his children. I am no longer sad about leaving my hometown. People often ask me: Listen to your accent, aren’t you a native? I will acquiesce proudly. Once a man from the northeast asked me: Are you a native? Do you have the same accent as here? However, I have a bitter taste of crying and laughing. Although there is always a kind of inexplicable loss and sadness every time we travel between hometown and a foreign land, staying in a foreign land, on the contrary, there is a kind of calm and peace that hometown does not have. It turns out that a foreign land is like a hometown, which is also a kind of eternal complex in people’s hearts. Like (prose editor: Dielianhua) change the way to continue to stay with this city I went out at 6 o’clock in the morning and came back at almost 8 o’clock in the evening. From beginning to end, I only welcomed myself with silence; Since I went to college, on weekends… [Original essay] string words Since winter, the sky is dry and the snow is misty. The whole earth is desolate and empty. 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