Can’t open heart door

Some people say that it is enough to have a relationship only once. If you have more love, you will compare it and become numb. In my opinion, in the world of love, the injury should not be too deep. If there is scar left, it will leave shadow, except injury or injury. Love can hurt, but pain is not necessarily a wound. Acupuncture is very painful, but there will be no scars. But let love leave a deep memory. But both body and mind are hurt, leaving a gray shadow for a lifetime. Love that can be deep in the depth of life is painful and happy. When the blood drops, love is over. My heart has never been opened since that day. Is it because I don’t want to open it, or no one can open it? In this closed door, there were a pile of bones of dead people. My heart was cold because of the heavy Yin. His appearance was totally different, but he was still haunted. In the dream, his appearance was a mixture of Bi Fujian and Zhao Benshan, without the original appearance. I wanted to open a happy door and let the sunshine come in one meter, but I was afraid of meeting someone who turned into bone ash again. From then on, it would never end, and there was no room to completely annihilate a trace of love left in my heart. I am also looking forward to the coming of a wisp of love, which will make my life shine again, until the near eternity makes me warm and leave this helpless world. But this heart door can’t be opened even if it is rusted. Who’s curse works? Open my door and let the whole House shine with sunshine. Let me transform once and forget all the past, simple and happy life. But the world seems strange to me, and none of them can enter my heart. I am redundant. Having nightmares for three consecutive days, I dreamed of my mother’s pain before her death. I cried and woke up, a little scared. I dreamed that I was stolen by a thief, and the shadow left by a camera stolen last year also haunted me all the time, although I had not thought about it for a long time. I also dreamed that I went back to the original home and saw a man who didn’t know him. His previous appearance was gone, and he couldn’t tell the correct appearance like a ghost. Wake up and feel dizzy and helpless. In fact, deep in the dream is the entanglement deep in the heart. I thought I had put it down, but my dream told you that I was still there. I have been in love with myself, but I lowered my head and looked at it. It was just a shadow. No expression, no warmth, no hug. It will only follow me in the daytime, and it will disappear when I lie down. What accompanied me was the memory in the dream. As time goes by, my sadness is born into my marrow. Unable to extricate themselves. Although the heart is still alive, it can be enveloped by smoke. When physical or weather problems occur, the mood changes. Soft clouds and light fog all become hatred. God gave me rich inner feelings, but let me live alone in this strange world. When my mother left, I felt a sense of loneliness again. The night my mother went out of the mountain, I said I would stay with my father. But my father said no, he was fine. At this time, I found the difference between father and mother. I didn’t see him cry in my father’s life. This is a man. Tears flow into his heart when he is sad. My father is also very lonely. My father said, I am also fast. He meant to leave the world immediately. But my father is obviously in good health. My father believed what my uncle had said a long time ago. Said father and mother would grow old together. Father also wants to go with mother. I think: where will I be buried when I go there? I hope to snuggle beside my parents. Look, I am so sad. It seems that I am born with no real happiness. My smiles are faint, but my sadness is deep. Like a black hole, falling too deep for too long, I can’t see the light. 2011.9.8 Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…

Water Lotus

There is a fountain outside the office. It is said that the fountain has not been sprayed for a long time. Only a rockery full of Moss stands alone in the center of the pool. Several unknown plants on the rockery are full of vitality, although the pool water was not very clean, there were groups of red koi swimming freely, which was quite happy. It was in midsummer, which was undoubtedly the best place for me to go when I was working and leisure. I don’t know when I started, I was surprised to find that there were some flowers in the pool. Looking from a distance, it looked like lanterns one by one. I hurried to the pool, ah, what a beautiful flower. There are two kinds of colors, light yellow and pink. The flower looks like a charming girl with shy veins, I am afraid that such a simple and elegant color can’t be dyed with any kind of pigment in the world! Unlike Lotus, which has a long stem that can stand on the water gracefully, it also has a stem, but the stem just holds the flower and just emerges from the water, in this way, it is closely combined with the water surface, just like a delicate girl, quietly leaning against her mother. The leaves of the flowers are long and angular, neatly arranged, each leaf keeps a proper distance, neither dense nor sparse. It floats quietly on the water, without noise, publicity, and even no fragrance that ordinary flowers should have, so beautiful, without any decoration. Its leaves also float on the surface of the water, keeping a near distance from the flowers, seemingly irrelevant but reflecting each other. I have never seen such a flower, fresh and elegant, but it shocked me. My colleague said, this is water lotus, commonly known as water lily. I suddenly remembered two poems in my mind, that was “Shayo Nara, goodbye” written by Xu Zhimo. It was the most gentle one who lowered his head, like the shyness of a Lotus which was beyond the cool wind. This was a poem that I remembered deeply, I have been thinking about what kind of flower can be used to describe a gentle and beautiful woman by an affectionate scholar Xu Zhimo. I once mistakenly thought that Lotus is a lotus flower, but it seems more appropriate to use Lotus to describe a graceful and graceful woman, compared with lotus flowers, lotus flowers are more fragile and shy, not as confident and arrogant as lotus flowers. After busy work, I always like to go to the pool, like going to a date in my heart, full of joy. Flowers bloom one after another, always welcoming me in its most beautiful posture. I stand by the pool, but my heart is always mixed, because I find that no matter how hard I rack my brains, unexpectedly, I couldn’t find a suitable word to describe its beauty and my incomparable love for it vividly. I felt suffocated in my heart, and I always held it in my hand, the impulse to caress and play in every way, but reason told me that such behavior was very disdainful. It left the water surface and its leaves, it is no longer a spiritual life, it will wither and zero, and how can I bear to let it die in my hands because of my selfish love, let me appreciate it from a distance, just like many beautiful things in life, instead of reluctant to ask for them, let them gradually disappear in your hands, and let the past beauty disappear, it is better to stand in the distance and watch carefully, because liking doesn’t have to be based on what you have. Only when you know how to let go at the right time can you become a happy person. I love this lotus flower, which let me know that I, through the wind and rain, through the vicissitudes of life, still have a heart that can perceive beauty and discover beauty, and still have a pair of eyes that can capture beauty and discover beauty, life will continue, and my heart will keep a little joy because of this beautiful flower. Like (prose editor: Jiangnan wind) the snow in spring Spring elimination snow, multi-the yao nian, unspoken. Reading from afar, it is just above that snowfield. The snow is really beautiful, after all it is spring… Waiting Waiting is a kind of persistence, sticking to a certain belief and never giving up. Maybe because of a certain commitment, or because of a certain… Be good at listening to different voices and opinions On October 6th, I published a travel essay: “beautiful autumn scenery”, which was obtained by many literary websites… Read The Bridges of Madison County “When the white moth spreads its wings, you can come to me at any time”. I think, if I am a man, be accepted… From today on, I want to be happy I read “the biography of Hulan River” long time ago, and I remember that I was really in a heavy mood for a long time. Which characters caused me… Sick time I sneezed one after another these days. I said someone was reading me and others said I was sick. Finally, the doctor also said I was…