Written in Dragon Spring

The spring of the year of the Dragon finally came. Although it was a little long, I still looked forward to it. It has been more than ten days since the Spring Festival. I have also returned to the small town from the countryside for the Spring Festival. According to the monthly calendar, I went back to my hometown for three weeks, which happened to be 37 to 21 days. Everything went well. Beginning of Spring is one of the 24 solar terms. After beginning of spring, it means that winter is over, and the warm spring comes gradually. The weather hasn’t changed much recently. According to the weather forecast, a new round of low temperature precipitation weather will come in the next few days. But I suddenly remembered that when I was celebrating the new year in the countryside a few days ago, I got up in the morning and clearly smelt a smell of soil in spring. Although I felt a little cold, I felt very comfortable in my heart. Spring. Although the old saying is concise, it always makes sense. Spring is coming, what plans will we have? These days, I will take time to visit my grandfather in the hospital. My grandfather is three years old in his 80 s this year, which can be regarded as a long life in the countryside. However, in recent years, he has been suffering from lung problems such as pulmonary edema and bronchitis, the physical condition is always bad. When I went to my third uncle’s home to pay New Year’s greetings on the fifth day of junior high school, I realized from the communication with my grandfather that he didn’t want to leave us too fast. He said that he still wanted to go to a bigger hospital, so he really couldn’t go. According to the wishes of the old man, the uncles sent him to the first hospital in the city. After returning to the small town, I occasionally brought some meals to the aunts and uncles who took care of my grandfather to accompany him. In the hospital, I also saw many patients like my grandfather. The clinical one, 68 years old, has lung cancer. It looks normal in the daytime, unlike grandpa who can only stay in bed and cough constantly at night. According to the secret disclosure of the family members, the doctor said that he could only try the scheme treatment. If it didn’t work, it would only take half a year. After saying this, every time I went to the hospital, I couldn’t help looking at him quietly. It was just a few years older than my father that I was going to face death, but he didn’t know it at all, I am still worried about the expensive medical expenses and farm chores at home every day. I can’t help thinking of someone again. A person who has been tortured by illness for half of his life, he is my little grandfather and his brother. Since I was sensible, I had the memory of his illness. I can’t go up and down every day. I just walk around at home and do some cooking and housework at most. In my impression, every time I went to my grandfather’s house, I would pass my grandfather’s house, and I would always see him sitting alone in the handrail of the wooden building, listening to the shabby radio and hoarse Beijing opera jokes, staring at the opposite hill or crops in front of the door with crutch. He could only see the rice in front of the door turned yellow and green, green and yellow. Sometimes, I would imagine him as a farm General. Seeing him standing on the handrail pointing the village bit by bit, waving a crutch, it was another spring, summer, autumn and winter, coughing for a while, and three shifts a day. Sometimes, he would also face the scenery in front of the door, humming a high tune, although there was no audience or applause. According to my mother, Grandpa Xi loved singing when he was young, especially Peking Opera, He has a good voice, and it is said that he has been on stage in the production team. I seemed to hear his voice again. But after all, I haven’t seen him for many years, and I can’t help feeling guilty. With complicated memory, there are few memories with him. I remembered that when I was in primary school, I went to pay New Year greetings to my grandfather with my mother, and also went to my grandfather’s house by the way. He always persuaded me to eat dinner at his home, he said that I am small, and I need to eat more to grow tall and fat. Due to the lack of contact at ordinary times and the fact that I don’t like to call others, he said in front of me, “it doesn’t matter if you don’t call me, I am the wild man,, I can sing when you beat boars, hang pheasants and chase rabbits in the foreign Guild. I said, “I don’t believe it, so after drinking a glass of wine, he began to sing a song. At that time, although I didn’t have the level of appreciation, especially the quintessence of Chinese culture, but I do admire his high voice, which is compared with a Bao and Zhang Yu on TV now. Unfortunately, I grew up later, and I was nervous about studying, so there were few opportunities to go to my grandfather’s house. Even if he went there, he never met or visited him specially. My grandfather has a lot of diseases, At first it was rheumatoid arthritis, then it was partially paralyzed, and then it was cerebral hemorrhage. I couldn’t say anything about it, but I only occasionally knew something from my mother’s mouth. But he has always been very optimistic. For decades, he has been keeping those familiar plants, trees, mountains and waters in his homeland. I really wanted to write many stories about him. However, my writing was pale and I didn’t talk with the old man deeply. I didn’t dare to be subjective blindly. I believe that my grandfather was also very thoughtful and assertive, there must be a lot of things to say. If he is a literati, no less than Mr. Shi Tiesheng, he will certainly write down many insightful words; If he is, as an artist, he can definitely be on the CCTV Spring Festival Gala, and he will certainly have many fans and fans; Ruoguo, he is a doctor, he should cure his own problems as well as avoid suffering from diseases. However, he was just an ordinary villager with no income. He ate by his grandmother himself with physical strength. He picked up some garbage and collected some waste in spring, and bought some popsicles in summer, After collecting rice in autumn, cut some firewood to sell, and in winter, go up the mountain to burn charcoal in the kiln, which can make a living more or less, but without any savings, only paying for the medicine of my grandfather would cost a lot. Although several little uncles had already got married, they didn’t live a rich life. They struggled outside every year and didn’t achieve any results. It was said that Grandpa Xi’s life was really bitter. When he couldn’t stand the illness, he would ask Grandma Xi to call barefoot doctors in the village to take some anti-inflammatory and analgesic drugs. The year before yesterday, it was said that cerebral hemorrhage was sudden and he was seriously ill, so he stayed in the township health center for a week. After a little better, he was sent home again. In 2010, a big fire burned the home of Grandpa Xi. On that day, he lit the fire at home alone. Seeing the fire getting fiercer and fiercer, he couldn’t stop it, later, luckily, a passing driver found that he carried it out of the house. His life is really big, the villagers all say so. A few days ago, in the hospital, we talked that Grandpa Xi was a hero, a hero fighting illness. In the village, we didn’t know how many people were stronger than him, he also used him to comfort my grandfather. After he arrived at the hospital, don’t worry and take care of his illness. He will get better day by day. In my heart, Grandpa Xi is a hero. I have a good chance to talk with him, talk, listen to him about the past, and listen to him sing a high tune, listen to him talking about those lonely days when he fought against the disease. I plan to visit my grandfather’s house by the way in lunar January this year. However, since my grandfather was unwell, I have been living with my grandmother in the third uncle’s house in the town, I won’t see him again, so let’s wait for the summer vacation. I must go back to see him during the summer vacation. Four hours ago, my mother called me and told me a message: Grandpa Xi passed away at about ten o’clock in the morning. At that time, I turned off the program which was playing the annual finals of the Avenue of Stars. Sitting alone in front of the desk, I thought: what should I do for him and what should I do, what can I do? My insignificant words will never complete his story, and my deep guilt will never make up for a pity. I can only say to him in the spring night when the rain suddenly drops outside the window: you, go all the way. Perhaps, the parting of my grandfather is a kind of getting rid of, or a kind of victory, but also a sublimation of life experience. Human life is fragile after all. He didn’t enter the spring of the Year of Dragon. He had passed away without time to feel the thriving spring. These days of experience made me feel calm in such a day. The beginning of spring, the year of the Dragon Spring. Even if you have any big plan, wonderful plan, grand plan and conception, the first thing you should bear is to cherish life, body, time and the present you enjoy! With life and health, you will surely have a beautiful spring! Lunar January 13 later than Huai Dongzhai

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