Tree rings deep running

The winter in the South is always so wet and cold, which makes people feel that the blood and bones are filled with chill. Two days ago, it seemed to have snowed. The reason why there seems to be a feeling is that it is closed in the middle of doing official articles on the top floor of the hotel, and I am tired of the suffocation made by the air conditioner and the tiredness of searching around. I was surprised and delighted to see the snow-white roof of the city occasionally when I pushed the window. Then I leaned over and looked at the street below. The asphalt road like Gully was wet and black, which inevitably disappointed me. When the ban was to be removed and returned to the office, there was already broken sunlight flowing through the clouds, rushing to the world persistently. The light white on the roof may not last long. This snow fell in my dazzling and nervous dream without any signs or sounds. The real falling down on the Earth will eventually disappear in my busy and dull feeling, it may be just a little embellishment casually sprinkled in winter, which is intended to indicate that spring is not far away. However, it is always hard to leave a deep impression on those who often meet at random and pass by calmly. Therefore, this snow was finally out of luck with me, just like many things happened this year, many faces I have seen, and many names I have heard, drifting across my heart in the flying days, and went away again. Soon, I will forget it. The reason why I am so sure is that I have vaguely felt that many similar things have been forgotten. However, no matter what the weather is, whether I forget it or not, the atmosphere in the streets of the small city is actually a little different from that in normal days. People and cars are like streams, bustling. Many people ran hurriedly in the nearby commercial pedestrian street, carrying big and small bags on their shoulders, which was a lively and festive atmosphere. I guess most of the colorful bags are candy and snack which are enough to amuse children, skirts and hats which are enough to support a woman’s smile in a season, or various gifts that witness respect and filial piety. Although the chill is cool, it can’t stop people’s enthusiasm and happy footsteps focusing on small thoughts. The intersection was already too crowded. All kinds of vehicles gathered and many people gathered together. The noise was noisy. The motorists are ringing their car horns, while the riders and passers-by are still leisurely and at ease. The zebra crossing is worn by the soles of their feet with only a few white spots left, and the artificially set line becomes blurred and erratic. Thinking of those fidgety and tangled faces in the window, he smiled unconsciously. I was absent for two days, and there were a lot of New Year cards on my desk. After cutting it carefully, the people who sent blessings were still those in previous years, and the words had changed. From working smoothly to all the best, from health and family happiness, there were not many innovative words, but the warmth of writing is very touching. This made me suddenly recall those friends scattered around the world, the days I spent with them day and night, and some distant reunion scenes. I almost forgot some of them and their voice and appearance if there were no reminder of New Year card. The coming of the new year card proved their safety, and also proved that I had a friendship with them. The isolation of time and space and the pursuit of life have degraded the way of maintaining emotions to such a level, even unreal, which is really inexplicable sorrow. Another effect of the new year card is to solemnly remind me that one year will go and another year will come. This kind of hint made me find some kind of tension deep in my heart after feeling it, maybe it is the so-called timidity of getting close to love. This sense of timidity is not enough to be caused by the addition and modification of a certain number written in the Gregorian calendar alone. It seems that only with the coming of the old calendar year can such an effect be achieved. Mr. Lu Xun said, after all, the end of the old calendar is more like the end of the year, which is still the same for me. It has been many years. At the end of the Gregorian calendar, I spent it at random without any memory. And the end of the old calendar, because it is more like the end of the year, can still remember the fragmentary pieces. So when you come, you always feel special. It is like passing through the marked fork when you are walking. It will actively generate a kind of mental attention and alertness, and you always want to talk about the opportunity of breathing, practice some naive plans, such as paying a little reading debt, sleeping till waking up naturally, sitting in a quiet and thinking, taking his wife and children to walk along the country road and so on. For me, these things seem to have more and more unique Meaning of settling down life and returning to spiritual home. In addition, there is only a feeling of tension left. Where does the tension come from? It is very complicated to say, and it is very similar to the feeling of being missed by bus, it seems to vaguely see the years galloping away with the gorgeous carriage of life, But I am not in the car. Besides, up to now, the family has not prepared any decent New Year goods, and there is no oily sausage hanging on the balcony. The clothes on the family members were bought during the last Spring Festival sale with tears from the merchants, debt ultimatum for buying and decorating new houses also came frequently, and the number on UnionPay card was so small. The growth of time is really a wonderful thing. It can change people’s experience of the concept of time and space. The days are like years or years are like days, moments or eternity seem to be between thoughts. This reminds me of Einstein’s theory of relativity. However, did we travel at the speed of light? Otherwise, how can the feeling of interlacing time and space rise. At the end of the new year, I always get used to ordering gains and losses for a year. Whenever I think of different life and future, I vaguely feel that I am like a tree waiting for picking and harvesting, a tree with mottled growing old, A tree running with increasing annual rings. Sometimes I really want to force myself to calm down and carefully touch the texture deep in the ring, but the wind of life blows so fiercely that I can’t stop. It is said that the annual rings of trees are caused by the density of growth caused by the cold and summer seasons. I think this should not be wrong. The wind and rain, cold and warm of life are the same most of the time. We can’t feel the annual rings carved in the body of life. We can’t break the thick years and see its cross section. What kind of annual rings will be left in my life in the coming year? At this moment, I am standing in the depth of this upcoming annual ring, repeating a memorial ceremony about time and spiritual journey again. In a few days, the end of the old calendar will come. Sitting in front of the computer at this moment, I listened to the sound of firecrackers and children’s laughter from time to time from far and near. The pictures of New Year in my childhood appeared in front of me, but the color was gradually Gray. However, in spite of this, I still can’t put down my expectation and desire for the future spring. Because I know that my son is still looking forward to the colorful fireworks I bought, my parents are still watching my home, and my lover is still waiting for me to go shopping with her to see this colorful world full of festive atmosphere. Thinking of these, I suddenly had the desire to step and run in the depth of such another life ring.

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