Hello, my inner child

After having dinner with the guests, I couldn’t get rid of my unspeakable sadness for quite a while. I know that my inner child was stimulated. On the dining table, the restaurant was very slow to serve at the wedding banquet, and it was almost interrupted twice in the middle, which gave people the impression that the grade was very low, while the boss just attached great importance to this banquet. The boss’s face was very ugly. Although I didn’t say anything, I seemed to hear a voice of criticism. Yes, my inner child was hurt. I saw him who was nervous and scared. Therefore, I immersed myself in that sad atmosphere and wanted to approach my inner child. I wanted to say hello to him. I want to treat myself by accompanying my inner child. I felt my shoulders tight and my back was sore. Various complex feelings are sometimes vague and sometimes clear. Grievance, self-accusation, helplessness, nervousness, worry, fear, anger and so on. I felt the deep feeling enveloped me, but it was hard to really see what it was. Yes, I noticed that my inner child appeared, but he didn’t let me see his face clearly or get close to him. I know that the only way is to wait patiently without disturbing him. Yes, I seem to see his disappointment and dissatisfaction with me from the boss’s face. I don’t know if I want to explain anything. I have arranged it carefully. The accidents in the hotel are really uncontrollable factors. This makes me very sad. Why are you nervous and scared of the disappointment of the boss? I want to get closer to my inner child. Tears of grievance wanted to fall down. I vaguely saw him who was severely reprimanded by his father when he played and went home in his childhood. Father said: if he saw me playing by the river again, he would press me in the water with big stones. I wanted to say that I didn’t play in the water at all (that was what I wanted very much), but my father didn’t allow me to tell. Yes, it seems that I did something wrong, which made me feel nervous, scared and wronged. Maybe I have made my fist tight, but how dare I attack my father?! Yes, I look forward to my father’s understanding and recognition. I am so eager to be appreciated. And my heart was full of anger for my father’s despotism! This is my inner child. I saw him clearly at once. Hello, inner child. I know you are serious and responsible for yourself. You didn’t do anything wrong, but the environment was full of variables, so when faced with some autocratic fathers, you couldn’t tell yourself clearly, and your heart was full of anger. I understand your grievance. Maybe your father’s support and maintenance are the only guarantee of your life, but you can completely protect yourself after things change. You have your own power, and you don’t need to rely on others. I use meditation to say this to myself and to the inner child. I shivered and felt a lot excited. Just like being sunk into the abyss just now, now it is found that there is still supporting force in the low valley. Yes, do I still need to rely on others as I did in my childhood? Thank you, inner child. Your timidity and responsibility made me a prudent person, avoiding many mistakes and pains. Sincerely thank you. Your self-accusation has become the self-disciplined me nowadays, which makes me grow to Today step by step. You don’t have to be nervous and afraid, because now I have great power to dominate myself. You don’t have to feel wronged any more. It doesn’t matter if you don’t cheer for others. What matters is that you cheer for yourself. In fact, under Jiuquan, father should also feel gratified for his son today. No matter how tears flow down, I know that my tears are moved by the acceptance of the inner child. He no longer had so many tangles and constraints, and he became free and relaxed. I held him tightly, and I integrated with him. I shook my shoulder, which became relaxed from the tightness of hair. An inner force surged up all over my body, which gave me a boost. I took a deep breath and knew that the inner child had grown up.

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