Give me a cigarette

Give me a cigarette! I don’t like women who smoke, and even don’t like women who smoke. But in this declining world, when my heart-wrenching pain could not be cured. How much I want to pick up that cigarette, even watching her burning quietly, burning into ashes. Let a complex disappear in the smoke. Let a regretful feeling curl up with the smoke, slowly follow the smoke, float with the smoke, and leave with the smoke …… give me a cigarette! I am not a depraved woman, I am a girl who is tightly wrapped by family ideological education. I am not an indulgent woman, I am a model of lofty self-reliance and sticking to the rules. I am not an enchanting woman, I am an ordinary and quiet woman. For that sanctity, I can’t bear to touch the world. Please give me a cigarette! I want to forget you forever. In the smoke, I want to stare at your back for the last time. I felt painful and painful. I wanted to paralyze myself with smoke and to get drunk, but I knew that getting drunk would ruin my life. Because every cell in life is in pain. So, can you give me a cigarette? I don’t like women who smoke, but there is a betrayal in my heart. I don’t want to be myself anymore. But that kind of rebellious and unruly character has always been in the bones. But I was surrounded by principles, I was surrounded by the secular world, so I wanted to break free, and I wanted to be myself who was not myself! Please forgive me, how about my indulgence? This is the only time, OK? At dusk, sit quietly in a corner, listening to a song of “Cloud Water Zen heart”. In the familiar melody, smoke is drawn out and lit. The lips of Zhu are light, and a touch of light smoke is surrounded by lips, slowly rising, diffusing, gently wrapping my lonely soul. For me, picking up that cigarette is a comfort to loneliness. Therefore, I am not lonely. Yes, I am lonely but not lonely! Loneliness is a wound that others cannot touch, and it is on the soul. However, loneliness is a woman’s choice. My loneliness should also live a different style. Smoke is burning, and every burning is burning my life. Put in fragrance once, Shine once, thus destroy once. The continuation of life is hurt in the burning Halo again and again. When the tobacco was completely gone, the romance of women was far away from the dust and never ended up. Under the night, in the music, under such a background, I longed for a cigarette, the feeling of anesthesia and the end-result of no longer loneliness. Between the rising and rising, I am not myself, I am not myself. The brand of the cigarette, -Called confidante. A confidante is just as rare. What is confidant? There is never a definition, only you can feel it from your heart. What is that cigarette? I want to say something that cannot be said. What is that cigarette? It is a fervent and persistent emotion. What is that cigarette? It is the grief and sorrow that penetrates the heart. What is that cigarette? It is a great feeling without regret to see the end of the world. Who knows, who knows, who pity, who heartache, who is a confidante!!!

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